i am alone
i broke up with matt 2 nights ago. i miss him but i know it is far better off that we aint together. i love him and always will but i want him to realize what hes doing to me, and he aint going to realize anything if i keep putting up with his bullshit. so i am going to just sit back and see what happens, if it was meant to be it will happen. he really pissed me off tonight, he told me he wanted to talk about us, so he said he wanted to come up to my work at break and i finally agreed, well he never showed up so i called him and asked why and he said cause he was busy, then why the hell did he ask me if he could come up there to talk, it aint like i asked him or something. he always puts everyone else first, oh and then when i went to get my id from him today, he had two girls over in the motel room, he is such an asshole, he says he loves me but he treats me like shit. i am hurt, i dont know why i trust people or open up to anyone i always get hurt in the end and i have done so much for him, i dont deserve this from him of all people. i love you matt, please think about everything i said to you and think about how i feel when you lie to me or hide stuff from me, i dont ever lie to you. i love you.