I'm... not too good, but I wondered if you could spare me a moment. I don't really want to take up your time. I'm sure Aiden would kill me if I wore you out. Are you feeling okay?
Only if they're long and thick, darling. I prefer my poles hot though.
Unless you're going to challenge me to a duel, love, I think he'll be okay with it. If not, I'll show him Marc's picture to distract him. It usually fuels a good hour of expletives. I'll be fine. Stress is just not my friend. You can talk to me any time, you know. It seems you're family by default, if my suspicions are correct. Different set of rules for family, darling.
Then you're not adverse to all male analogies then, are you? I can't say I'm a fan of bananas either, but then I'm crap at eating properly.
No duels, I promise. Yes, I can see now why he thought Aiden wanted to kill him from the beginning. There's really no love lost there, is there? Harri's lucky her best friend is that protective. And what suspicions would they be?
I get a feeling Cameron wouldn't agree with you on that, darling.
Aiden doesn't understand dishonesty. While I can't possibly say what Marc did or is can be classified as lies, he was still based on untruths. Harri has never known the real Marc, which Aiden just sees as a big gaping hole for potential hurt to her. And I don't think he knows how to prevent it. That your Marc's ex... wife, perhaps? I'm not going to judge you, darling. Or Marc. This situation is just painful and complicated all around. There's going to be hurt, no matter what.
Why do you say that? Don't you think everyone is going to be punished enough from the mess without trying to beat yourself up, too? Self blame, self doubt... both languages I'm fluent in. But trust me, it does nothing but veil your true analysis of a situation. It stops you seeing what's really going on.
Cameron's wonderfully biased, but he might change his mind.
He wants her to know him. The thing that scares me is that Marc is too busy trying to be someone else, that he's lost himself. He's broken, Pat. Aiden's not helping, even if he can't understand what Marc's been doing. I just want to help him get back on track. I'm sorry Harri got hurt, but she's going to have to be key in this, too. You really are Cameron's brother, aren't you? You're both very perceptive. Yes, I'm his ex. I'm also his best friend, and I am always going to be his best friend. It was a huge fucking shock to realise he wasn't dead.
I didn't want to hurt Cameron. I also didn't want him to be in hospital when I told him the truth. I also want to tell you the truth, because I don't want him to have to lie to you. I don't want to lie to you.
Mine's no better. It's one of the reasons I wanted to talk to you. So that we continue being honest, you should know I've been engaged three times. Nearly married those three times, too. Marc was my first actual husband, and that was just because we were drunk, and apparently being in Vegas made it an attractive idea. We didn't know until the morning after... then we spent forever trying to ignore it.
I told him everything... he went into shock because, you know, Marc's back from the dead and my ex husband. And he's shagged Harri, so there's some weirdness. Marc and I had a lot of unresolved issues for obvious reasons... I just want you to know, and I wanted Cameron to know that we're over. I'm not in love with him, but I am always going to love him. I really care about Cameron. I haven't run... I did say goodbye before I left like he asked. I had to come back to New York for business.
Darling, what do you want to happen? Best case scenario, in consideration of everything that has happened. What outcome do you want? What do you want to feel?
I want to be able to try something with Cameron. I know it's a little fucked since I'm moving from the country he lives in, but... I really like your brother. I guess I just want to be happy, and he makes me feel happy. When I'm not beating myself up.
I can't promise you it will be easy. It won't. Cam's basically basically married to his career, so you two will need to get to know each other a bit more, which I have a feeling he wants seeing he gave you his number. What about the situation with Marc and with Ali? Yes, darling, I know Ali. I told you we were linked pretty deeply.
Seems like everyone knew about Marc before I did... Guess he really didn't think I'd come back. Cameron warned me about his career. And I don't mind since he looks so sexy in those shorts. I want to get to know him as well.
I'm here for Ali, and Jamie. Marc was a surprise, but I don't really want to stop having him as my friend. And I'm... I'm trying to help fix him. I'm trying to help him.
I think Harri, Aiden, and Ali aren't really "everyone", darling. Marc only told me himself after I married Aiden because his conscience wouldn't let him force Aiden to lie to me. Aiden only knew because Marc knows how important trust between best friends is and couldn't expect Harri to lie to Aiden. It was like a chain of dominoes and I'm not sure what in Marc's mind knocked the first one over but I think it might've only been a matter of time before he came back to you himself. You just beat him to it. From what I can gather, Marc is trying to be someone he thinks he has to for his job, but the real person inside, he can't let go of and I think if anything that makes him strong, not weak. I think the key is to make him see that he hasn't failed. This is all going to feel like failure to him, when it's really the opposite. It takes a good good man to admit he needs his family to thrive himself. And I think you need him as much as he needs you. Just like Harri and Aiden.
Really does take someone else to help us see the whole picture, doesn't it? Thank you, Pat. I want him to have his family without losing his career, but I don't think he can just be SS. I think he needs some sort of stability. I'm... I'm going to try and do the impossible and get him back in the FBI. Get us both back.
I hope he can find some sort of peace in everything, especially his job, which is clearly vital to who he is. I understand what it's like to realise you have to all but start your life over. As much as I love bright and fabulous, simple is sometimes better. Like... just hug him, and tell him you forgive him. Offer him a clean slate to start over so he doesn't feel like there are so many hoops to jump through to achieve getting back on the horse. But only if you're strong enough to forgive him yet. If you aren't ready, then that's okay, darling. No one would blame you.
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How are you doing, darling?
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I'm... not too good, but I wondered if you could spare me a moment. I don't really want to take up your time. I'm sure Aiden would kill me if I wore you out. Are you feeling okay?
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Unless you're going to challenge me to a duel, love, I think he'll be okay with it. If not, I'll show him Marc's picture to distract him. It usually fuels a good hour of expletives. I'll be fine. Stress is just not my friend. You can talk to me any time, you know. It seems you're family by default, if my suspicions are correct. Different set of rules for family, darling.
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No duels, I promise. Yes, I can see now why he thought Aiden wanted to kill him from the beginning. There's really no love lost there, is there? Harri's lucky her best friend is that protective. And what suspicions would they be?
I don't deserve to be your family, Patrick.
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Aiden doesn't understand dishonesty. While I can't possibly say what Marc did or is can be classified as lies, he was still based on untruths. Harri has never known the real Marc, which Aiden just sees as a big gaping hole for potential hurt to her. And I don't think he knows how to prevent it. That your Marc's ex... wife, perhaps? I'm not going to judge you, darling. Or Marc. This situation is just painful and complicated all around. There's going to be hurt, no matter what.
Why do you say that? Don't you think everyone is going to be punished enough from the mess without trying to beat yourself up, too? Self blame, self doubt... both languages I'm fluent in. But trust me, it does nothing but veil your true analysis of a situation. It stops you seeing what's really going on.
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He wants her to know him. The thing that scares me is that Marc is too busy trying to be someone else, that he's lost himself. He's broken, Pat. Aiden's not helping, even if he can't understand what Marc's been doing. I just want to help him get back on track. I'm sorry Harri got hurt, but she's going to have to be key in this, too. You really are Cameron's brother, aren't you? You're both very perceptive. Yes, I'm his ex. I'm also his best friend, and I am always going to be his best friend. It was a huge fucking shock to realise he wasn't dead.
I didn't want to hurt Cameron. I also didn't want him to be in hospital when I told him the truth. I also want to tell you the truth, because I don't want him to have to lie to you. I don't want to lie to you.
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I told him everything... he went into shock because, you know, Marc's back from the dead and my ex husband. And he's shagged Harri, so there's some weirdness. Marc and I had a lot of unresolved issues for obvious reasons... I just want you to know, and I wanted Cameron to know that we're over. I'm not in love with him, but I am always going to love him. I really care about Cameron. I haven't run... I did say goodbye before I left like he asked. I had to come back to New York for business.
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I'm here for Ali, and Jamie. Marc was a surprise, but I don't really want to stop having him as my friend. And I'm... I'm trying to help fix him. I'm trying to help him.
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