Single Again
Last night I got dumped again. Jonathan told me that the relationship was just adding too much stress to things that are already going on in his life. He wants to remain friends though. Honestly, I think we'll make better friends. I've been thinking about it and I want to stay single for awhile. I've got alot in my life to straighten out that I really don't have time to commit to a relationship. I'm staying friends with everyone. I keep going out with guys when I'm on the rebound. Like Jen said that's not healthy. So I'm saying good bye to dating for now. I'm going to do things right, stay friends, and get to know a guy first before entering a relationship with him. I make a better friend then a girlfriend anyways. I feel totally fine about being single too. I think that when guys find out about all the stuff I'm going through right now in life that they run off because they don't want to deal with it since it'll be adding more stress to their lives. I add stress to people's lives. I don't mean to. That's ok, I keep everything locked inside and don't share anything with anyone cuz they don't seem to care. And plus I don't want to add more stress to their lives. Another thing why it didnt last this time around is because Jonathan has a barrier around his heart where he won't let anyone near him. He's got stuff in his past that keep bothering him. Well, if the guy can't let me in but shuts me out, the relationship never had a chance to work. I've been in a relationship before where the other person shut me out and it ended up falling apart. But for now I'm staying single and I'm going to enjoy it. So if any guy asks me out, I'm going to say NO! Just say no. I can do it, I know I can. Being single will allow me to get things in my life fixed and will let me be free in a way. I'm not saying that I'll never date again. But for the time being, I need to straighten my life out and figure out what I'm doing and where I'm going with my life. So all my friends out there, if I start talking about guys and start liking one, tell me no and remind me of the other 4 guys that didnt last. I'm holding ya'll to that, too. Anyways, I gotta go.