Happy Valentine's Day
Happy Valentine's Day. Although I hate Valentine's Day. To me it is just a stupid silly made up commercial holiday. I guess cuz I'm kind of stressed at the moment. To think that last Valentine's Day I was in Paris and engaged to get married to Jonathan Ivy. I do think about Jonathan sometimes and wonder how he's doing. I emailed him the other day but he never emailed me back. Of course, Jonathan never was the type to write emails. I hope he's doing ok though cuz I still consider him a friend. Well, this past weekend I went to a couple of parties. I didn't drink at the one on Friday night. But I was reminded why I don't really go to these wild college parties. It's because some of my guy friends got drunk and well alcohol causes people to do things they normally wouldn't do when sober. On Saturday night I did drink a little. I was depressed and I tried to get rid of depression by drinking. That however doesn't solve anything. It just made me more depressed. I did not get drunk but I was kind of tipsy, buzzed, whatever you want to call it. I didn't do anything stupid. My boyfriend is doing well. I don't know if I mentioned my boyfriend in the last entry. I'm dating a Navy guy named Jonathan Flanders. He's 18. Yep, I got a younger guy this time. Anyways, he's really cool and the first time we met, we hit it off pretty well. We've been going out for about a week now. Guys on base though are telling him that he's going to get dumped because it's been a week and my other relationships only lasted a week to two weeks. But he said he ignores al that stuff and that if he thought it was true, he would have dumped me. Just like the other day when he was at the mall with TJ, TJ went to look at girls. Well the guys met me and Jen over at Bed, Bath and Beyond. TJ said he didnt really see any chicks. He goes don't worry Jonathan wasn't looking. I told Jonathan it was ok if he was looking. He looked at me and said, Jenna I don't have to look at girls, I'm happy being with you. I thought it was so sweet. The only problem I'm having right now is that he has a barrier set up around his heart because he's afraid of people knowing the real him. Plus he's kind of still in love with his ex from 2 years ago. He says he doesnt think about her as much anymore. We had a talk the othr night and I was like well what if I can't measure up to her? He told me not to worry about it. He was like Jenna, I asked you out so obviously I was ready to move on. Jonathan is a real sweetheart. He's a great guy and he seems happy everytime hes with me. I love how he's always so calm and caring. I saw Michael and his girlfriend Britney the other night. Britney is really cool. She's a sweetheart. She and michael are so happy together and they are very cute together. As for my relationship I am happy with Jonathan. I'm just taking thing slow. In order to break through the barrier, it's going to take love, time and patience. But anyways, I gotta go, Michael should be here soon. I hope everyone has a good Valentine's Day.