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ok well i have a new boyfriend and his name is chris!! and guess what......i lost my virginity to him!! so ya im not a virgin anymore!! i dont know why but i hate having relationships cause all i do is think negitive and all!! im always thinnking that hes just doing it to get in my pants, that he doesnt really like me, and all kinds of things!! i really really do like him........actually i think im falling in love with him!! i feel so safe in his arms, so happy when i talk to him on the phone, i mean just looking at his name makes me smile!!! i just hope this one is for real cause im tired of getting all the assholes!! just for once can i have a nice relationship that has no worrys or regrets?? i mean is that too much to ask?? just like my saying goes!! i want an man to spoil me just by simply loveing me!!