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Today has started out on the wrong foot. I got to school to fucking early and i look like shit. I have to go to the doctor this afternoon and i am so dreading it. I am soo stressed out right now with things going on at home and when it comes to ethan i just take it all out on him. I know i should and its not like i purposely do it, you just take it out on the one you love. Everyone knows that. I know push him away from me when i am stressed out and grouchy all the time. I have been trying so hard to make it work and it seems like i aint doing a very good job. He is mad at me and doesnt know if he wants to be with me right now. I dont understand y he is the one wanting to get rid of me when he is the one who came back for a second chance. I aint going to blame it all on me or all on him but it takes two to make it work. I dunno i am just so upset and i really just dont know what to do anymore. It sucks and i am shutting up cuz i now all this shit will get back to him and then it will be flipped and flopped round b4 it gets to him. So anyway...........later.