11.03.06
This year is just flyin... and I need a MARCH! GOD! I'm pretty sure I won't find one... but also, I'm not trying...
Today was Weight Watchers, I lost 3.4 but I'm certain I wore my heavier shoes last week so it's probably around 1 lb less than the numbers would indicate... Nonetheless, obviously still a good week. I'm feelin' positive about my previous week in many areas, not just food and weight watching. I'm hoping to keep the good times goin' this week (and this month, despite staying on the same bc which may or may not be causing depressive symptoms. 'Cause see, usually I don't talk about suicide nearly as much... but last month it was just matter of fact, and that's been in the past a symptom of meds that "can cause depressive symptoms" so you see, this is what I'm going on). I'm also pretty pleased about being more in touch with me and my needs. Of course, that's an excellent segue to this week when I'm struggling to balance doing things for others and doing things for me. I guess I had just hoped that Spring Break would be about me... and only me. But ya know, it's always a choice. I just choose to suffer but make other people happy. I maintain!, when I'm done with school it's gonna be all about me... until I have kids, I guess... HA! Wow, maybe I'm lying. Maybe I'll just always say, later on, I'll live for me... maybe I'll be retired and wondering why I wasted my life... great! Oh well, until then, at least I'm being nice to other people, even if I am martyring myself... self-righteous or not, don't complain to me, at least you're getting your way!! GOSH!
Celia and I are seeing Transamerica today, it better be good! OH! Maybe tomorrow I can watch A Very Long Engagement... that would be nice. Right now, French studying 'cause my last exam was so bad ('cause she's such a bad teacher and even worse tester) that I got a C but she curved it 'cause no one did even close to well, and I ended up with a B+... but still... It's my major, the lowest I get is A-... let's be realistic here!
Today was Weight Watchers, I lost 3.4 but I'm certain I wore my heavier shoes last week so it's probably around 1 lb less than the numbers would indicate... Nonetheless, obviously still a good week. I'm feelin' positive about my previous week in many areas, not just food and weight watching. I'm hoping to keep the good times goin' this week (and this month, despite staying on the same bc which may or may not be causing depressive symptoms. 'Cause see, usually I don't talk about suicide nearly as much... but last month it was just matter of fact, and that's been in the past a symptom of meds that "can cause depressive symptoms" so you see, this is what I'm going on). I'm also pretty pleased about being more in touch with me and my needs. Of course, that's an excellent segue to this week when I'm struggling to balance doing things for others and doing things for me. I guess I had just hoped that Spring Break would be about me... and only me. But ya know, it's always a choice. I just choose to suffer but make other people happy. I maintain!, when I'm done with school it's gonna be all about me... until I have kids, I guess... HA! Wow, maybe I'm lying. Maybe I'll just always say, later on, I'll live for me... maybe I'll be retired and wondering why I wasted my life... great! Oh well, until then, at least I'm being nice to other people, even if I am martyring myself... self-righteous or not, don't complain to me, at least you're getting your way!! GOSH!
Celia and I are seeing Transamerica today, it better be good! OH! Maybe tomorrow I can watch A Very Long Engagement... that would be nice. Right now, French studying 'cause my last exam was so bad ('cause she's such a bad teacher and even worse tester) that I got a C but she curved it 'cause no one did even close to well, and I ended up with a B+... but still... It's my major, the lowest I get is A-... let's be realistic here!