happy new yr to everyone one
Well I hope that everyone's new years was very great and everyone had fun. I didn't have a phone all night so I couldn't of called anyone to wish them a happy new year. But I really did wish I could of been in DC or in VA Beach to be able to spend it with my frineds but I couldn't since I'm still dealing with this crap about the military. I might be over in Norfolk around the 27th, but I am sure I will only be there for one day that I know of. (But as I said I'm not completely sure so don't hold your breath incase I won't be there around that time.)
I've been beyond depressed and very lonely it's not even funny, I have been on the brink of crying almost every day, I am going I think through a horrible depression it isn't even funny, I personally hate even writing that let alone going through it. I feel so damn alone here, not being included in on things, people lying to me about things, the rumors that are said about me. They have managed to calmn down recently but they aren't any better being in the back of my mind or anything what so ever. But I just wish that things would manage to just get back to normal. I mean when I was over in Newport it seemed like things were a bit hectic but they were never anything like this. I mean people tell me your a "city girl" not a "small town girl" but that honestly has nothing to do with it what so ever. I mean I LOVE small towns they are comfortible and I like them, but I miss the city of course, but it has nothing to do with the fact of the way that people make up bullshit. I remember a little while back when Jamie told me that her sister didn't like Bobby because she said that her sister knew him and he was a dick to her and everything that they went to school together, well that is and was impossible, I'm sick of those types of lies also. I talked with Jamie's father over the holiday and I wanted to say happy new yr and Merry Christmas but of course they were trying so damn hard for her to not talk to me. They still to this day can't come to grips that I didn't make their daughter Gay she has always been that way. I wonder how fake they are to the girl that she's with now? How they treat her nice and everything else and then tell her that she needs to get away from her too? They liked me for a short period of time but that was only to pump me for info on where she was at when she left after she got done with college for that semester. I do miss her a lot, I miss us laughing and talking all the time, I tried her cell phone but that doesn't work but she knows the number to reach me at, I wish she would I really would of had a better holiday if we could of gotten together and all went out for a night that honestly would of made my yr. Just like I do hope when I do go down to Newport that people get to see me and hang out with me, I will probably be car less but I at least will be there, I'd love to spend time with Lindsey and Gabbie, April, and everyone else, but that would be up to them. I will most definetly be keepin in contact with people as much as I can before I go to head down there. My folks are splitting up I still can't hardly believe that one, after 36yrs of marriage my mom is leaving my dad not for someone else, just because she says it's now time to think about herself and only care about herself. DAMNIT! My dad is very very sick and doesn't have that long to live how can she say this shit and do this shit to him? It does bother me but I can't think of myself, and if anyone knows me at all you at least know that I don't think about myself I always manage to think about everyone else way before I do about myself!!!
Well I do miss everyone comment if you'd like to. I love and miss everyone emensely!!
I've been beyond depressed and very lonely it's not even funny, I have been on the brink of crying almost every day, I am going I think through a horrible depression it isn't even funny, I personally hate even writing that let alone going through it. I feel so damn alone here, not being included in on things, people lying to me about things, the rumors that are said about me. They have managed to calmn down recently but they aren't any better being in the back of my mind or anything what so ever. But I just wish that things would manage to just get back to normal. I mean when I was over in Newport it seemed like things were a bit hectic but they were never anything like this. I mean people tell me your a "city girl" not a "small town girl" but that honestly has nothing to do with it what so ever. I mean I LOVE small towns they are comfortible and I like them, but I miss the city of course, but it has nothing to do with the fact of the way that people make up bullshit. I remember a little while back when Jamie told me that her sister didn't like Bobby because she said that her sister knew him and he was a dick to her and everything that they went to school together, well that is and was impossible, I'm sick of those types of lies also. I talked with Jamie's father over the holiday and I wanted to say happy new yr and Merry Christmas but of course they were trying so damn hard for her to not talk to me. They still to this day can't come to grips that I didn't make their daughter Gay she has always been that way. I wonder how fake they are to the girl that she's with now? How they treat her nice and everything else and then tell her that she needs to get away from her too? They liked me for a short period of time but that was only to pump me for info on where she was at when she left after she got done with college for that semester. I do miss her a lot, I miss us laughing and talking all the time, I tried her cell phone but that doesn't work but she knows the number to reach me at, I wish she would I really would of had a better holiday if we could of gotten together and all went out for a night that honestly would of made my yr. Just like I do hope when I do go down to Newport that people get to see me and hang out with me, I will probably be car less but I at least will be there, I'd love to spend time with Lindsey and Gabbie, April, and everyone else, but that would be up to them. I will most definetly be keepin in contact with people as much as I can before I go to head down there. My folks are splitting up I still can't hardly believe that one, after 36yrs of marriage my mom is leaving my dad not for someone else, just because she says it's now time to think about herself and only care about herself. DAMNIT! My dad is very very sick and doesn't have that long to live how can she say this shit and do this shit to him? It does bother me but I can't think of myself, and if anyone knows me at all you at least know that I don't think about myself I always manage to think about everyone else way before I do about myself!!!
Well I do miss everyone comment if you'd like to. I love and miss everyone emensely!!