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I've been soo damn busy lately, between working, taking care of my folks for a bit, things going on with my grandmother, dealing with Jamie leaving, I just have been soo stressed out. I am going to be in the delivery room when Cindy gives birth which I will say will probably tramatise me for when I do have children..lol...But I'm excited for Stellen to be here, it has been a whole 9 months that I have helped Chris and Cindy out with getting things ready for him to come in to this world so I will be very excited when I get to see what this little one looks like. Yes I'm still single! Wow right? (Not really) I have been trying to get a hold of Rachel before she heads back home so I can get my things back, but also because I would like to see her and maybe say a friendly goodbye to her, I have read that she has had a lot going on with her lately, and I do hope that things get better for her when she does head home for good.
I have talked to Guinny and I miss her soo much, I wanted to see her along with Katie while I have been in town but I haven't had that much time to see them, but what can you do right? The only thing that I can manage to do is see how things go and see when I can manage to get up here on my spare time which soon might not be much.
Jamie went on to write something in her lj about how I had mentioned things about us and how I was thinking about getting back together, that I do think about a lot but since she is with that one girl Kris in AL that does make things hard yaknow?
I really want to see Shelly a lot also, but she more busy than I am right now, I have been thinking a lot about the people in my past and the friends that I do hold close to my heart and I have came to a lot of conclusions. The ones that I have fell in love with that knew it, that had hurt me the most yes I do keep them close to my heart and talk to them as often as I can (as friends and nothing more). But what I don't get is that the ones that know that I love them, and that they mean a lot to me seem to get their "girlfriends" or others that they are seeing mad when I text them with I'm thinking about you or I miss you. Now if we are friends and that is it then why get mad? They should be standing up for me telling them that it's nothing but a friendship type of missing. I mean I get asked for cash constantly now since I have been making more money and it seems like I'm good enough to take you out and have a great dinner, or lend you cash that honestly I doubt I will ever see (which doesn't bother me since I don't really want it back unless you really feel like paying it back or if I really need it back one day) but not good enough to say to your gf's or whatnot hey we're just friends, it hurts it really does. I have been there for the people in my life so many times for whatever they needed and most of them yes they do treat me the way friends should be treated but others just don't seem to show that. And well I care about my friends more than the world and each and everyone of them know this. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for my friends, let it give them the last 3.00 in my pocket, or give them the shirt off my back..I just don't understand people sometimes.
I miss Amber so much and I can't wait until mom comes down in June she and I are going to have a great time...YAY!! I miss her so much, I'm going to try my hardest to go up there, but I'm not sure exactly what's going to happen considering things have been coming up a lot lately on what is going to happen in the next few months. I might move to Chicago, I might move up again to Northern Va or MD again, I might stay here...not sure..just have to figure something out.
I really need a damn girlfriend! I'm sick of being alone, but sometimes yes that does need to happen. I have been single for way too damn long, and I guess it's starting to get to me. I just miss having someone to sleep next to me at night that I can cuddle with. She doesn't have to be my gf but I still just miss that body!! Is there any takers out there????
Also took a few new pics lately..hope you all like 'em
I have talked to Guinny and I miss her soo much, I wanted to see her along with Katie while I have been in town but I haven't had that much time to see them, but what can you do right? The only thing that I can manage to do is see how things go and see when I can manage to get up here on my spare time which soon might not be much.
Jamie went on to write something in her lj about how I had mentioned things about us and how I was thinking about getting back together, that I do think about a lot but since she is with that one girl Kris in AL that does make things hard yaknow?
I really want to see Shelly a lot also, but she more busy than I am right now, I have been thinking a lot about the people in my past and the friends that I do hold close to my heart and I have came to a lot of conclusions. The ones that I have fell in love with that knew it, that had hurt me the most yes I do keep them close to my heart and talk to them as often as I can (as friends and nothing more). But what I don't get is that the ones that know that I love them, and that they mean a lot to me seem to get their "girlfriends" or others that they are seeing mad when I text them with I'm thinking about you or I miss you. Now if we are friends and that is it then why get mad? They should be standing up for me telling them that it's nothing but a friendship type of missing. I mean I get asked for cash constantly now since I have been making more money and it seems like I'm good enough to take you out and have a great dinner, or lend you cash that honestly I doubt I will ever see (which doesn't bother me since I don't really want it back unless you really feel like paying it back or if I really need it back one day) but not good enough to say to your gf's or whatnot hey we're just friends, it hurts it really does. I have been there for the people in my life so many times for whatever they needed and most of them yes they do treat me the way friends should be treated but others just don't seem to show that. And well I care about my friends more than the world and each and everyone of them know this. There isn't anything I wouldn't do for my friends, let it give them the last 3.00 in my pocket, or give them the shirt off my back..I just don't understand people sometimes.
I miss Amber so much and I can't wait until mom comes down in June she and I are going to have a great time...YAY!! I miss her so much, I'm going to try my hardest to go up there, but I'm not sure exactly what's going to happen considering things have been coming up a lot lately on what is going to happen in the next few months. I might move to Chicago, I might move up again to Northern Va or MD again, I might stay here...not sure..just have to figure something out.
I really need a damn girlfriend! I'm sick of being alone, but sometimes yes that does need to happen. I have been single for way too damn long, and I guess it's starting to get to me. I just miss having someone to sleep next to me at night that I can cuddle with. She doesn't have to be my gf but I still just miss that body!! Is there any takers out there????
Also took a few new pics lately..hope you all like 'em