there's nothing to be gained from this but disaster...
holy shit this life sucks.
i'm not gonna put shit out there because unlike some people i have the dignity to keep it quiet and to myself and not make myself seem like a martyr. but for all of you who are going behind my back and saying shit about me on livejournal, i am through with you. you don't know the story and it's not your place to say shit about me.
aside from that, i haven't been online in weeks cause my internet explorer's broken, so i haven't read people's ljs for awhile. sorry for that.
i'm at vivian's house. she is a goddess. we went to caribou, subway, blockbuster, and the dollar store last night with lawrin. it was beautiful and fun and HOT LIKE DAMN WOW.... lol anyways. We rented Anastasia.. then we watched MANY MANY little kid disney movies all night (a.k.a. cinderella, anastasia, etc.) uhm yea... i've been having weird lapses in memory. not sleeping. not eating. missing... him. a lot.
so many bad things are happening and i can't help to stop them because i am not a doormat and i am not a miracle worker... and i can't let myself be trampled anymore.
and i'm so tired...
if i had the chance love
i would not hesitate
to tell you all the thing i've never said before
don't tell me it's too late...
cause i've relied on my illusions
to keep me warm at night
i denied in my capacity to love
i am willing to give up this fight
and just to let you know, i'm losing a lot of friends too, so stop acting like you're the damn victim. this is not my fault.
i'm not gonna put shit out there because unlike some people i have the dignity to keep it quiet and to myself and not make myself seem like a martyr. but for all of you who are going behind my back and saying shit about me on livejournal, i am through with you. you don't know the story and it's not your place to say shit about me.
aside from that, i haven't been online in weeks cause my internet explorer's broken, so i haven't read people's ljs for awhile. sorry for that.
i'm at vivian's house. she is a goddess. we went to caribou, subway, blockbuster, and the dollar store last night with lawrin. it was beautiful and fun and HOT LIKE DAMN WOW.... lol anyways. We rented Anastasia.. then we watched MANY MANY little kid disney movies all night (a.k.a. cinderella, anastasia, etc.) uhm yea... i've been having weird lapses in memory. not sleeping. not eating. missing... him. a lot.
so many bad things are happening and i can't help to stop them because i am not a doormat and i am not a miracle worker... and i can't let myself be trampled anymore.
and i'm so tired...
if i had the chance love
i would not hesitate
to tell you all the thing i've never said before
don't tell me it's too late...
cause i've relied on my illusions
to keep me warm at night
i denied in my capacity to love
i am willing to give up this fight
and just to let you know, i'm losing a lot of friends too, so stop acting like you're the damn victim. this is not my fault.