Time for something new
OOOoohhhh my GOD! My heart and stomach hurts. I have been so depressed lately. I think it's a quarter life crisis or something.
*Siiigh*. The thing I love so much in this world, art, has started to suck for me. I am realizing how much I am not ready for graduation or grad school.
I can't stand people anymore. And because of this, I am making less friends.
I am so insecure. I have these inner demons telling me "you are ugly....your bf doesn't like you....you're so weird....nobody likes you....you're not cool like them.....you're stupid....you're weird....your weird...your crazy....something is wrong with you"
I have taken up exercise such as swimming and jogging and that doesn't even help anymore. I don't ride my bike anymore!
I am fully aware depression runs in my family and I probably have it. But I have seen enough of it to let it ruin my life.
*siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*
I am so ready to start something new. I want to get away and go on an adventure or something. Sounds cheesy, but I'm serious. I want to just leave for a long time.
I think I will take as many hours as possible next semester and in the summer, and I can get the fuck out of school and get the fuck away from here! FUCK FUCK FUCK!
*Siiigh*. The thing I love so much in this world, art, has started to suck for me. I am realizing how much I am not ready for graduation or grad school.
I can't stand people anymore. And because of this, I am making less friends.
I am so insecure. I have these inner demons telling me "you are ugly....your bf doesn't like you....you're so weird....nobody likes you....you're not cool like them.....you're stupid....you're weird....your weird...your crazy....something is wrong with you"
I have taken up exercise such as swimming and jogging and that doesn't even help anymore. I don't ride my bike anymore!
I am fully aware depression runs in my family and I probably have it. But I have seen enough of it to let it ruin my life.
*siiiiiiiiiiiiiigh*
I am so ready to start something new. I want to get away and go on an adventure or something. Sounds cheesy, but I'm serious. I want to just leave for a long time.
I think I will take as many hours as possible next semester and in the summer, and I can get the fuck out of school and get the fuck away from here! FUCK FUCK FUCK!