once again
ONCE again, I feel like I have a ton of bricks in my chest. Today has been a miserable day...i can't wait till it's over. I'll just say it, i'm heartbroken. *SSSSssssiiiiiigggggghhhhhhh*
Today I took comfort in laying by the pool. Did a little swimming, but mainly just laying there in the sun. I was so down that i didn't want to get up, and now I'm just sunburned all over. I just drank some beer and smoked some cigarettes for like several hours. I don't normally smoke by the way.
Now I don't know how to continue the day. I'm just so bummed that I don't want to do anything but just sit on the floor and cry.
It's so hard to see the future right now. I know it will all get better, and it does. But right now it's just so hard to believe it.
I will give myself the day to mope around, eat rocky road ice cream, and be mad and confused. But tomorow, I will be done. I will go on with my life (hopefully). And it's going to get better with out this....thing!