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i am so frustrated with him. he got upset with me last night because i woke him up but how was i supposed to know he had ACT in the morning he didn't tell me. And now he hasn't spoken to me. and it is really starting to bother me. like he just doesn't care. like he doesn't think about me or doesn't care either. i want him to want to talk to me. to have things to say to me. to care about me. to tell me that i am wonderful and be romantic with me. i mean i know it is hard to do from such a distance but a simple post card or even just an IM would be more than what i have now. and sometimes i wonder if i made the wrong decision in getting into this. maybe my friendws are right maybe he is too young. maybe i do need something more. i don't even know.....i mean i love him to death, i think about him all the time but it is so hard when it doesn't feel two sided when it feels one sided....maybe i am asking too much from this relationship. maybe i should step back and start thinking of it as casual and not romantic and mushy....all i know is i don't like crying my self to seep and sitting in front of my computer all day and holding my cell in my hand waiting to hear from him. that isn't what i want.