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Have you ever looked upon who you were? what you've become? and what the person you used to be would think of you now?
Ive been thinking about it and to be honest I think that I would kick my own ass. I realize how easily swayed I am by the people I care about. I know this yet I still let it happen. I have slowly but surely been losing my connection with the Lord, and I can see the differences in my life. I have also begun to see several sins slowly coming in and clouding my mind. Pride... Its a big one, I have always been proud but lately I dont know, seems like I "cant be wrong"
Still despite all of this certain things that have changed do make me happy, I am a much more confident person. I am slowly growing thicker skin, which I am honestly glad for. I am also learning that certain things are not worth fighting for. However certian things are and to be honest certain things need to be said but never will be. Not from a lack of confidence or the lack of need, rather it is because I view it as a point that I no longer feel it is worth rocking the boat. The boat's on the sea and a lot of people are pushing and shoving anyways so whats the point of me adding to it. Whatever. Given enought time the truth will reveal itself.
I am seriously getting tired... Tired of fake people, people who are full of shit, people who expect so much but do little, people who are so damned hypocritical, people who's behaviour and complaints make me just want to slap the shit out of them...
Perhaps I need to speak to the Lord again, I seem to have lost my patience, caring, and love... Hopefully I can get these things back...
Ive been thinking about it and to be honest I think that I would kick my own ass. I realize how easily swayed I am by the people I care about. I know this yet I still let it happen. I have slowly but surely been losing my connection with the Lord, and I can see the differences in my life. I have also begun to see several sins slowly coming in and clouding my mind. Pride... Its a big one, I have always been proud but lately I dont know, seems like I "cant be wrong"
Still despite all of this certain things that have changed do make me happy, I am a much more confident person. I am slowly growing thicker skin, which I am honestly glad for. I am also learning that certain things are not worth fighting for. However certian things are and to be honest certain things need to be said but never will be. Not from a lack of confidence or the lack of need, rather it is because I view it as a point that I no longer feel it is worth rocking the boat. The boat's on the sea and a lot of people are pushing and shoving anyways so whats the point of me adding to it. Whatever. Given enought time the truth will reveal itself.
I am seriously getting tired... Tired of fake people, people who are full of shit, people who expect so much but do little, people who are so damned hypocritical, people who's behaviour and complaints make me just want to slap the shit out of them...
Perhaps I need to speak to the Lord again, I seem to have lost my patience, caring, and love... Hopefully I can get these things back...