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As i sit here and stare out the window all day
I think to myself of what i should say
How should I say it? Will i say it right?
Will it come to me easily or am i going to have to fight?
Im tired of fighting for everything and you
Im tired of crying im tired of hiding
I hide my heart under my sleeve only to find it has been lost
Its lost deep inside and i cant get it back
I cant get it whole, for there will always be that part
that part that youve ripped the part that you stole
I want it now and i want it whole
I want you to know how much i hurt
i want you to feel how how much it burns
But you dont seem to care so i keep all the pain
along with my heart deep in my veins
pushing like a plunger to keep the drug inside
But the drug is only you and i want to hide
Hide from the thoughts that run through my head
Hide from the thoughts that i just want to shed
To forget would be impossible, they wont go away
Theyre with me all night and with me all day
Wondering why you just wouldnt stay
You cant even tell me and you wont even say
Why you dont love me
Or why you dont know
I want to hear the truth, I want to hear it now
I cant go on believing that this is not really a dream
For in dreams I can hide and turn you away
Or I can believe that youll be here forever and stay
But i can not change the way that you feel
My heart is going deeper, with each little tear
The tears that roll so frequently, the lingering in fear
The fear you dont love me
The fear you dont care
So i will once again look out my window
Hoping that one day youll find the courage to tell me
Why you dont love me and why you wont stay.....