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today has been an interesting day. totally out of the blue Nate IM'd me. i don't know if you all remember who Nate is, but the point is i haven't really talked to him since the spring, and today he was over at my house getting my geos notes from me. totally weird. i figured that i'd never see him again, but i guess i was wrong. but of course there is such perfect timing in all of this. as if i'm not having enough issues with guys, here comes nate back in the picture again. or maybe not so much back into the picture, he's just around now...
and then chris IM'd me today while i was waiting for nate to get here. he wanted to come over but i didn't want him to so i pulled the sick card since i still am sick. i don't know what i'm going to do about him. i've pretty much lost all faith in him and i think it would be for the best if he just left me alone, but he'll never do that.
god, today sucks! all these guys, and none of them are the one i want, and the one i want, i can't tell i want cause... well there really isn't a good reason why i can't tell him. i'm just scared io guess, and being scared isn't going to get me anywhere.
when i grow some balls i'll let you all know. but for now i'm out of here
and then chris IM'd me today while i was waiting for nate to get here. he wanted to come over but i didn't want him to so i pulled the sick card since i still am sick. i don't know what i'm going to do about him. i've pretty much lost all faith in him and i think it would be for the best if he just left me alone, but he'll never do that.
god, today sucks! all these guys, and none of them are the one i want, and the one i want, i can't tell i want cause... well there really isn't a good reason why i can't tell him. i'm just scared io guess, and being scared isn't going to get me anywhere.
when i grow some balls i'll let you all know. but for now i'm out of here