love is for stupid people
i'm stupid i fell for someone who dumped me for another girl cuz his mom didn't want us together. he called me last night and acted like i was nothing. cuz his new girlfriend was there. i started crying, she was like why is she crying. he was like i guess she still has feelings for me. so i just hung up on him. i called him back today after i calmed down. i was in love with him. i thought he loved me too. he told me not to worry, our paths will cross again sometime. i was like what am i suposed to do in the mean time. he said we would still be together if i wasn't for his mom. he didn't want to sneak me around. yet i sneak around to see him. anyway. i just want to go jump off a bridge or go to sleep and never wake up. why are guys such assholes! first they tell you they wanna be with you forever and then they pull this crap that since we can't see each other maybe it will work in the future. you know what kiss my white ass. i am tired of it. if you love someone you never wanna let them go. so obviously he doesn't want to be with me. thats ok i'll find someone else. hopefully. i fell to easily. i don't know why i guess its just cuz i trust to easily. OMG! i hate him for doin this to me. thats ok he'll realize what a great thing he is missing with me. idk if i should take him back, if i still love him. i mean i can see myself marrying him. i know that is really early but i can. his damn mother. his new g/f doesn't seem to match up to me. lets see how long this one lasts. i give it a couple of weeks. i might be wrong, maybe she has something i don't. maybe everyone has something i don't and i'm just not suitable for a relationship. i know i am only a senior and 17, but it would be nice to have someone to share it with. why don't i listen to people when they tell me stuff. i guess i'm just blinded by love. oh well g2g update when i talk to him.