Writer's Block: Life Changing Experiences
I did the writers block prompt today because it looked interesting and i could think of two right off the bat. I had to think about the third one.
My first Life Changing Experience: When my mother got cancer. I was in seventh grade and at the time, my biggest concerns were what boys I was into at the time and basic school drama. I recall one time, my mom telling me she had to see a doctor one day when she walked me to school when I was in kindergarten. I asked her why, and she told me because she "had some abnormal cells in her body". I wasn't quite sure what she ment at the time, but looking back she must have known way earlier then when it happened. Fast forward to seventh grade and im sitting on the couch with my dad right after he got out of the shower. My mom is still in the shower, probably scared and crying because I recall her being in there for a long time. "Your mother has cancer" are the only words I remember being spoken that night. At that time, cancer was still very unreal in my world. Death was unreal. I knew about cancer and that it took lives, but I never thought in a million years someone I know could get it. I couldn't focus in school, and I acted out my frustrations of not being involved in my mothers treatment on my peers. I made some bad decisions and gained a reputation I was not proud of. I even got kicked out of that school for my failing grades (i was attending on a magnet program). Looking back, I wish my parents had involved me more...or even at all in her recovery process. I was even more scared then the average person because I didn't know what was going on. I do, however, understand there reasonings for being as open about it with me.
My second Life Changing Experience: Going to a Christian Camp with my best friend Sarah one summer. Granted, I was only there for about two weeks, and I was only at this camp for one. I wasn't converted, I don't follow a religion. I think most of it is a hoax or a way to gain power over the minds of people who need someone to tell them what is right and what is wrong. Religion is for people who are scared to realize they might be alone in the universe. However, despite my attitude, this was a life changing experience. The energy was amazing at this camp. I think this was more of a "we're brainwashed to being happy" kind of thing, but the reason it was life changing was because I think it really taught me the power if being positive. The second thing that happened was when I had some sort of divine intervention that made me convinced there is something bigger then ourselves watching and listening. I was waiting in line to be blessed by some famous priest or pastor. He claimed to be able to give messages from the beyond. I thought it was silly, but I did was I was expected to do and I waited in line. I thought it was silly that everyone who stepped away was crying.
I burst into tears the moment his finger touched my forehead. I couldn't hear anything, there was just this overwhelming surge of emotion. It wasn't fear, happiness or anything else. Just raw unlabeled emotion. I had to be carried away because my body couldn't function enough to walk. I think I even recall someone having to catch me because I halfway collapsed. I kick myself for not being stronger and hearing what individual message was said to me. Some people say I started crying because I was nervous and I felt like I was expected to cry...but I could have cared less about what those people thought of me. I know what I felt and it opened up a secret place in my heart untainted by man made religion. I have a true connection and a true belief in the universe and the creation of life.
My third Life Changing Experience: My last one is kind of a two for one. It's a mix between the time I went sailing with my parents and a pod of dolphins came and swam with our sailboat and the time I went swimming with sting rays in the cayman islands. I was amazing how I could connect with wild creatures on such a personal level. I felt one with an animal kingdom and not just the human race. It was mind blowing and I would give anything to have events like this on the regular.
My first Life Changing Experience: When my mother got cancer. I was in seventh grade and at the time, my biggest concerns were what boys I was into at the time and basic school drama. I recall one time, my mom telling me she had to see a doctor one day when she walked me to school when I was in kindergarten. I asked her why, and she told me because she "had some abnormal cells in her body". I wasn't quite sure what she ment at the time, but looking back she must have known way earlier then when it happened. Fast forward to seventh grade and im sitting on the couch with my dad right after he got out of the shower. My mom is still in the shower, probably scared and crying because I recall her being in there for a long time. "Your mother has cancer" are the only words I remember being spoken that night. At that time, cancer was still very unreal in my world. Death was unreal. I knew about cancer and that it took lives, but I never thought in a million years someone I know could get it. I couldn't focus in school, and I acted out my frustrations of not being involved in my mothers treatment on my peers. I made some bad decisions and gained a reputation I was not proud of. I even got kicked out of that school for my failing grades (i was attending on a magnet program). Looking back, I wish my parents had involved me more...or even at all in her recovery process. I was even more scared then the average person because I didn't know what was going on. I do, however, understand there reasonings for being as open about it with me.
My second Life Changing Experience: Going to a Christian Camp with my best friend Sarah one summer. Granted, I was only there for about two weeks, and I was only at this camp for one. I wasn't converted, I don't follow a religion. I think most of it is a hoax or a way to gain power over the minds of people who need someone to tell them what is right and what is wrong. Religion is for people who are scared to realize they might be alone in the universe. However, despite my attitude, this was a life changing experience. The energy was amazing at this camp. I think this was more of a "we're brainwashed to being happy" kind of thing, but the reason it was life changing was because I think it really taught me the power if being positive. The second thing that happened was when I had some sort of divine intervention that made me convinced there is something bigger then ourselves watching and listening. I was waiting in line to be blessed by some famous priest or pastor. He claimed to be able to give messages from the beyond. I thought it was silly, but I did was I was expected to do and I waited in line. I thought it was silly that everyone who stepped away was crying.
I burst into tears the moment his finger touched my forehead. I couldn't hear anything, there was just this overwhelming surge of emotion. It wasn't fear, happiness or anything else. Just raw unlabeled emotion. I had to be carried away because my body couldn't function enough to walk. I think I even recall someone having to catch me because I halfway collapsed. I kick myself for not being stronger and hearing what individual message was said to me. Some people say I started crying because I was nervous and I felt like I was expected to cry...but I could have cared less about what those people thought of me. I know what I felt and it opened up a secret place in my heart untainted by man made religion. I have a true connection and a true belief in the universe and the creation of life.
My third Life Changing Experience: My last one is kind of a two for one. It's a mix between the time I went sailing with my parents and a pod of dolphins came and swam with our sailboat and the time I went swimming with sting rays in the cayman islands. I was amazing how I could connect with wild creatures on such a personal level. I felt one with an animal kingdom and not just the human race. It was mind blowing and I would give anything to have events like this on the regular.