I almost lost him
hey ya'll this is basically for ya'll that don't read my myspace... i just copied and pasted...
I know this is long, but if you love me or you're my friend, its worth reading. ok, i know i know every time i've posted on this thing lately it has probably sucked coz it has said something sad or me complaining about how much my life sucks or whatever... and yes this is kinda like that but it gets better. i promise.
Yes, my bestfriend is in jail. his girlfriend hates me and wants to tear my fucking face off because for some reason she thinks i'm perfect and she has a low self esteem but i set all that straight today when i commented on one of her blogs. Zac will probably hear about it and get mad at me, but i'm not the type of girl to bite my tongue when someone is talking shit about me. so anyways... that's like the least of my problems.
Me and richie got in a really big fight yesterday and we almost broke up. i found some emails he had been sending to this girl he met on that cruise a year ago and it honestly sounded like he was cheating on me. and as much as i wanted to trust him when he told me nothing was going on i couldn't help but not believe him. we sat in my back yard for like 10 minutes not talking to each other and then he locked me out of my car. then i sent him a text on his fone and told him i would take him home if he wasn't gonna talk to me and that i thought we needed to take a break until we could learn to trust each other. he started walking down the road and wouldn't let me take him home.
To make a long and sad story shorter... i cried, hyperventilated, almost threw up, dropped my glasses in the toilet... then he sends me a tm that says "meet me at the beach" joel had dropped him off and he wanted to talk to me. so i talk to joel on the phone the whole way there and we end up sitting on the beach crying in each others arms tellin each other how much we love each other and can't lose each other and all that stuff. i told him things had to change, he deleted all girls numbers and stuff from his phone and email and stuff and we're gonna work on it. but i told him i'm done playing games.
So... its all good! But you know what sucks the most. The only two that were really there for me were alex, my mom, and joel. Ashley was in Smithfield, Andy was on his way back to Illinoise, Zac... well duh. is in jail... and everyone else... well just doesn't talk to me anymore... but its fine now so i just thought ya'll should know
other than that i spent the night at richie's last night. slept in his tshirt and bball shorts and it was so hot i couldn't sleep. then i had this really bad nightmare... so... anyways. i'm really tired and my chest hurts. i think i'm getting bronchitis... ugh
I know this is long, but if you love me or you're my friend, its worth reading. ok, i know i know every time i've posted on this thing lately it has probably sucked coz it has said something sad or me complaining about how much my life sucks or whatever... and yes this is kinda like that but it gets better. i promise.
Yes, my bestfriend is in jail. his girlfriend hates me and wants to tear my fucking face off because for some reason she thinks i'm perfect and she has a low self esteem but i set all that straight today when i commented on one of her blogs. Zac will probably hear about it and get mad at me, but i'm not the type of girl to bite my tongue when someone is talking shit about me. so anyways... that's like the least of my problems.
Me and richie got in a really big fight yesterday and we almost broke up. i found some emails he had been sending to this girl he met on that cruise a year ago and it honestly sounded like he was cheating on me. and as much as i wanted to trust him when he told me nothing was going on i couldn't help but not believe him. we sat in my back yard for like 10 minutes not talking to each other and then he locked me out of my car. then i sent him a text on his fone and told him i would take him home if he wasn't gonna talk to me and that i thought we needed to take a break until we could learn to trust each other. he started walking down the road and wouldn't let me take him home.
To make a long and sad story shorter... i cried, hyperventilated, almost threw up, dropped my glasses in the toilet... then he sends me a tm that says "meet me at the beach" joel had dropped him off and he wanted to talk to me. so i talk to joel on the phone the whole way there and we end up sitting on the beach crying in each others arms tellin each other how much we love each other and can't lose each other and all that stuff. i told him things had to change, he deleted all girls numbers and stuff from his phone and email and stuff and we're gonna work on it. but i told him i'm done playing games.
So... its all good! But you know what sucks the most. The only two that were really there for me were alex, my mom, and joel. Ashley was in Smithfield, Andy was on his way back to Illinoise, Zac... well duh. is in jail... and everyone else... well just doesn't talk to me anymore... but its fine now so i just thought ya'll should know
other than that i spent the night at richie's last night. slept in his tshirt and bball shorts and it was so hot i couldn't sleep. then i had this really bad nightmare... so... anyways. i'm really tired and my chest hurts. i think i'm getting bronchitis... ugh