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I was watching this one movie earlier, it was called "Breaking Up" and I promise you that movie is so much like my life right now it's not even funny.
I just can't put into better words the way they described everything, it may sound stupid, but really I don't care. Like, I seriously wish just for one day out of all of these days I've had and will have that day I can just stop thinking about him..just for one day, it would be like some blessing towards me. It's like you know as the days go by more and more everything is over, but deep down..it's really not. It really never is either.
Sure, that one day gets to happen that you don't think of that certain person..but later on you think about it and you actually realize, it didn't matter because there you are thinking about them again. Wishing to see them one more time, hoping to talk to them, telling yourself to just call and see how they're doing. That person is all you can breathe. All you can talk about. All you can think about. You know it's the love of your life and it's gone right before your eyes. You have all of those memories as every day passes by but then again those memories make it harder every single time you think about it. It makes you want it to all start over like it was in the beginning and to know it won't be like that is to like tell you you only have a certain amount of days to live. It wrecks your whole body and mind. I feel I'm this way, definitely. I know this man is the one for me, doesn't matter if we were together for a week, six months, a year, four years. I know I'm suppose to be with him for the rest of my life. No one can ever compare to him and trust me, when you realize all of this..it's because you know seeing them one last time would destroy your entire world..to have to say goodbye. But you yern for something like that because you know he gets to hold you at least..one..last..time. It's all confusing. I need to do something about all of this and I'm so scared.
I just can't put into better words the way they described everything, it may sound stupid, but really I don't care. Like, I seriously wish just for one day out of all of these days I've had and will have that day I can just stop thinking about him..just for one day, it would be like some blessing towards me. It's like you know as the days go by more and more everything is over, but deep down..it's really not. It really never is either.
Sure, that one day gets to happen that you don't think of that certain person..but later on you think about it and you actually realize, it didn't matter because there you are thinking about them again. Wishing to see them one more time, hoping to talk to them, telling yourself to just call and see how they're doing. That person is all you can breathe. All you can talk about. All you can think about. You know it's the love of your life and it's gone right before your eyes. You have all of those memories as every day passes by but then again those memories make it harder every single time you think about it. It makes you want it to all start over like it was in the beginning and to know it won't be like that is to like tell you you only have a certain amount of days to live. It wrecks your whole body and mind. I feel I'm this way, definitely. I know this man is the one for me, doesn't matter if we were together for a week, six months, a year, four years. I know I'm suppose to be with him for the rest of my life. No one can ever compare to him and trust me, when you realize all of this..it's because you know seeing them one last time would destroy your entire world..to have to say goodbye. But you yern for something like that because you know he gets to hold you at least..one..last..time. It's all confusing. I need to do something about all of this and I'm so scared.