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why do i continue to do this?...
I mean, yes casey is the love of my life and he is someone I can see myself being with forever, but I don't want to wait forever to be with him. We live too far away and I havn't seen him in over 2 and a half weeks... that's not that long and I have done longer, but at the same time i just keep asking myself, " what am i waiting for?" really what is the point of being in a relationship were all you do is fight on the phone and 3/4s of the relationship consists on the phone?! well, i WAS looking forward to christmas break solely so I could see my love... but I can't do that now, obviously his job and new life in Jersey is more important than me, everyone else in Michigan, my Bday, and new years eve. LOVELY. really makes me want to stay with him forever- i couldn't think of anything better... waiting weeks to see him... looking forward to something that will never happen... and I REALLY cant wait til summer when he will be in Jersey ALL SUMMER and I will be in Michigan.
FUCK ME.
Not literally.
damn, I wish I could just stay in DC forever. i love it. and i hate MI without my friends... specially case.
I could get into some really deep song lyric or something sappy like that, but I don't feel sappy at all - cuz if this is what he wants to do then I guess it really isn't much of a waste. right? I mean once you realize things will never be the same you get over it(Luke from the OC - 1st season)... or there is no day like today, right? (rent - obv)
I guess I am just at that point where i take a step back, look at my life and realize - there is no day like today and things with casey and I will never really be the same... I can only wish, but, no matter what your parents told you, wishing doesnt get you shit.
he went to the extent to tell me ... let me be specific please... that Anna, Ryan, Scott, Jackie, Jordan, Jessy, Ben, and John have all told him they pretty much hate me... sooooo i guess Casey is god of all. I think it's funny that he needed to take that lil jab at me and put me right over the edge... the edge that says to me "let's watch sex & the city with the lovely roomie and turn off the phone for the rest of the night, making sure to block all unwanted numbers tomorrow" that edge is looking pretty damn good.
Goodnite district of colombia.
I mean, yes casey is the love of my life and he is someone I can see myself being with forever, but I don't want to wait forever to be with him. We live too far away and I havn't seen him in over 2 and a half weeks... that's not that long and I have done longer, but at the same time i just keep asking myself, " what am i waiting for?" really what is the point of being in a relationship were all you do is fight on the phone and 3/4s of the relationship consists on the phone?! well, i WAS looking forward to christmas break solely so I could see my love... but I can't do that now, obviously his job and new life in Jersey is more important than me, everyone else in Michigan, my Bday, and new years eve. LOVELY. really makes me want to stay with him forever- i couldn't think of anything better... waiting weeks to see him... looking forward to something that will never happen... and I REALLY cant wait til summer when he will be in Jersey ALL SUMMER and I will be in Michigan.
FUCK ME.
Not literally.
damn, I wish I could just stay in DC forever. i love it. and i hate MI without my friends... specially case.
I could get into some really deep song lyric or something sappy like that, but I don't feel sappy at all - cuz if this is what he wants to do then I guess it really isn't much of a waste. right? I mean once you realize things will never be the same you get over it(Luke from the OC - 1st season)... or there is no day like today, right? (rent - obv)
I guess I am just at that point where i take a step back, look at my life and realize - there is no day like today and things with casey and I will never really be the same... I can only wish, but, no matter what your parents told you, wishing doesnt get you shit.
he went to the extent to tell me ... let me be specific please... that Anna, Ryan, Scott, Jackie, Jordan, Jessy, Ben, and John have all told him they pretty much hate me... sooooo i guess Casey is god of all. I think it's funny that he needed to take that lil jab at me and put me right over the edge... the edge that says to me "let's watch sex & the city with the lovely roomie and turn off the phone for the rest of the night, making sure to block all unwanted numbers tomorrow" that edge is looking pretty damn good.
Goodnite district of colombia.