someone rescue me from myself.
well mom went off on me last night....i didnt do anything, but she went off. about everything ive been doing for the last week and a half. and she now has a problem with it. and it totally sucks. so whatever. she came in my room at about 10:00 and it seemed like she was just bitchoing at me for like an hour till she finally got pissed off bc i w2asnt talking and went to bed. lucky her. i didnt go to sleep till like 1am and then had to get up at 5, but luckily i fell back asleep and then mom came in and woke me up at about 6 something so i could be ready to leave on time. everything sucks. i feel like i am tearig me and derek appart. so i guess im just gonna break up with him, at least for a while till everything settles back down and im not such a lil bitch all of the time. bc im agravated, and then my parents either do something or say somehting and thats makes me pissed and then he will do the smallest thing wrong, that should bother me and im totally pissed at him. and i love the way we are when everything is fine, but lately, im not fine and im tearing us appart. so i really think im just better off breaking up with derek now, where hopefully later we can get back together and everything be ok. before i totally destroy everything we have bc im a lil bitch.