Touch of Grey.
Since a lot of this has been pent up for a little while, although I'm not quite comfortable w/posting it yet since I feel I could do better w/some of the writing and add more to it, I will add what I've come up w/so far. Fuck it.
What do I write about?
All my anger and sadness?! Oh, there's the occasional amusement and bewilderment of...
Lol.
What about the empty HOLE in my heart that may be never filled again...
Nah.
How about what I've been up to lately?
I can't wait until I get a good camera, because I really dig documenting the good things in life in a good way. Not a cheap disposable camera way. I've been documenting parts of my life lately but the pictures arent coming out that great.:( Anyhow.
I've been reminded, that its beautifully ironic those who truly love you seem to accept you for who you are. Yet these ppl who love you, a lot of times the feelings aren't mutual, and you'd rather the person you are actually in love with was saying and doing these things instead. It's an ongoing dead record, and its really...LAME!. It's really unfair as well, because those who truly let go of their inhibitions, of their fear, and truly love do not deserve the lack of what they give out. I've seen this many times, in many places. It's sad. I'm very tired. Harry Chapin? "The good tired. The bad tired." Let's just say I've been bad fucking tired a very long time, but I'm not going to bitch about it. I'll keep making my lemonade because it tastes a lot better than the reality of the bitch real life is. Real life is not pretty, its hard. Everybody Knows by Concrete Blonde says it best. Overall though, its all about making it better with the lemonade, with the person you enjoy being w/the most.
I guess I'm sorry I feel so underestimated. Disappointed, and passed over. It's common, however. And like the Grateful Dead said in Touch of Grey (their only good song), I Will Survive.
What do I write about?
All my anger and sadness?! Oh, there's the occasional amusement and bewilderment of...
Lol.
What about the empty HOLE in my heart that may be never filled again...
Nah.
How about what I've been up to lately?
I can't wait until I get a good camera, because I really dig documenting the good things in life in a good way. Not a cheap disposable camera way. I've been documenting parts of my life lately but the pictures arent coming out that great.:( Anyhow.
I've been reminded, that its beautifully ironic those who truly love you seem to accept you for who you are. Yet these ppl who love you, a lot of times the feelings aren't mutual, and you'd rather the person you are actually in love with was saying and doing these things instead. It's an ongoing dead record, and its really...LAME!. It's really unfair as well, because those who truly let go of their inhibitions, of their fear, and truly love do not deserve the lack of what they give out. I've seen this many times, in many places. It's sad. I'm very tired. Harry Chapin? "The good tired. The bad tired." Let's just say I've been bad fucking tired a very long time, but I'm not going to bitch about it. I'll keep making my lemonade because it tastes a lot better than the reality of the bitch real life is. Real life is not pretty, its hard. Everybody Knows by Concrete Blonde says it best. Overall though, its all about making it better with the lemonade, with the person you enjoy being w/the most.
I guess I'm sorry I feel so underestimated. Disappointed, and passed over. It's common, however. And like the Grateful Dead said in Touch of Grey (their only good song), I Will Survive.