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Boy I was fooling around with turned out to be a major douche after it was firmly established after our initial encounter that all I was looking for was Friends With Benefits. Boy apparently has obvious issues because he then chose to try and make me jealous, become increasinly inappropriate at all the wrong times and just flat out ignoring me. Upon reflection and consultation with friends (particularly with those who witnessed his behaviour at a party) it was decided that he clearly wanted/wants more than FWB.
Given my current circumstances...I'm not looking for anything beyond FWB. He knew this from the beginning before we even fooled around because I had told him (in vague terms) about having unresolved stuff with a boy overseas after last year.
I move back home very soon for the summer and don't have the time or energy to put into a real relationship.
So...that's unfortunate.
Especially given how goddamn horny I've been lately. The past few days especially.
I've pretty much ended up masturbating a minimum of 3 times a day the past like...4 days. And when I saw three times I mean three different sessions. As in today it was right when I woke up before breakfast, the middle of the afternoon and now I'm about to go at it again before bed.
And I've rediscovered the joys of penetration and I'd forgotten that penetration occassionally means squirting for me. Normally I stick to clitoral stimulation and I can get off pretty quickly - especially if I'm keyed up. Last night though...holy fuck. I had a free condom some random health education guy had given me. Given that I'm not likely to have a partner anytime soon, I pulled it over my hand like a glove and proceeded to fist myself like crazy. Also - first time with any kind of lube - granted not much since it was just a lubed condom but still. I was keyed up before I snapped it on and then when I did I think that with the lube meant I was really ready for a pounding because pretty sure I got my whole goddamn fist in there for the first time ever. Normally I use two fingers because I can't really get three in properly and you know, rather get a good rhythm going in my tight pussy then be trying to stretch it out like crazy. But last night...dear god!
I've also gotten into sucking on my fingers then touching myself (tits and pussy/clit) and now even licking off my pussy juices from my fingers. And smearing them over my tits.
God I need a proper vibrator though. My back massager is all well and good but given my new love of penetration it's not really cutting it.
Fuck....ok I need to go get myself off now.