My rant for the day....
Gah! What the fuck is wrong with me!? Blaah! Like wtf, I've been depressed off n' on for god only know y, I've been wakin up earlier then ussual n' I've been actin so weird lately. I dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. Its so effin weird. Like, I uno. Well I in a way know y I've been gettin depressed buh also for some other reason that I dont know so like gah... Well acctually I do know, I jus really dont wanna talk bout it. Yesterday I woke up at 6am n' today I woke up at 8:42am, like wtf!! This is pissin me off. Thats another thing, I've been gettin pissed off a lot more then ussual. I wish I knew what the fuck was goin on.
Anyways, I've been gettin asked what I want for christmas, already. And like, I really dont know what I want. So its kinda hard to tell people who want to buy me gifts what I want, cuz really what I get is what I get. And I dont care, I mean, if they think I'd like it then I'd prolly like it. I dont really need more junk, I've got a room full a stuff that I should throw away, buh with me its sooo effin hard for me to jus throw things away. And I need new clothes n' my family knows that so like, y r u askin me what I want? Gah, fuckers!
So these past few days have been goin pretty shitty lately. And I'm not gonna get in to it, so dont ask! If u know whats goin on, then fuckin keep ur mouth shut plz n' thank you! And theres only a few people that I can trust now a days. I mean, with everythin thats been goin on n' like with sum a the shit from my past theres not many people I can really trust anymore. So if u know whats goin on, feel loved.
Hmm... lastnight a few people went to that concert that was goin on at warp 9, n' I really wanted to go cuz like I havnt been to a concert in forever n' the ones that I went to r pretty old now n' like one band I went to see most likely doesnt even exsist anymore. Fuckin popstars! Grr.. Yea so the only concerts I've ever been to were of O-town (ya fuck u too), Fingereleven, n' some Canadian Idol bullshit.
I dont even know what to think anymore. Theres jus way to much shit in my life! I fuckin hate this. And I really dont know whats gonna happen. I jus wish I didnt feel like this n' that I could acctually talk bout my feelings instead of keepin them in or jus writtin them or jus tellin people to fuck off or w/e. Cuz like, I really do need to talk bout shit more often. Buh I dont, cuz like, I cant and I feel like a fuckin loser bout it. I jus fuckin freeze up n' start cryin or sumthin. Cuz I'm jus fuckin stupid like that!
I need a smoke! Gah, buh no.... I dont have any. Fuckin assholes!
And grrr.... I wish my parents wernt such jackasses! Like fuck, most of the time when I want to go somewhere n' have fun n' be with people my parents r all like "no, not tonight" or "its to cold" or "I'm not givin u money n' how would u get their n' back" or sumthin like that or "what they cant come here" or "Jamie, get sum new friends that live over here" n' all this crap. And I wish I wasnt so fuckin afraid of takin the bus by myself. I feel like a fuckin loser, bcuz I dont know alot of shit that I prolly should know n' I'm jus completely stupid.
Whatever, I'm done with this bullshit!
Jams
Anyways, I've been gettin asked what I want for christmas, already. And like, I really dont know what I want. So its kinda hard to tell people who want to buy me gifts what I want, cuz really what I get is what I get. And I dont care, I mean, if they think I'd like it then I'd prolly like it. I dont really need more junk, I've got a room full a stuff that I should throw away, buh with me its sooo effin hard for me to jus throw things away. And I need new clothes n' my family knows that so like, y r u askin me what I want? Gah, fuckers!
So these past few days have been goin pretty shitty lately. And I'm not gonna get in to it, so dont ask! If u know whats goin on, then fuckin keep ur mouth shut plz n' thank you! And theres only a few people that I can trust now a days. I mean, with everythin thats been goin on n' like with sum a the shit from my past theres not many people I can really trust anymore. So if u know whats goin on, feel loved.
Hmm... lastnight a few people went to that concert that was goin on at warp 9, n' I really wanted to go cuz like I havnt been to a concert in forever n' the ones that I went to r pretty old now n' like one band I went to see most likely doesnt even exsist anymore. Fuckin popstars! Grr.. Yea so the only concerts I've ever been to were of O-town (ya fuck u too), Fingereleven, n' some Canadian Idol bullshit.
I dont even know what to think anymore. Theres jus way to much shit in my life! I fuckin hate this. And I really dont know whats gonna happen. I jus wish I didnt feel like this n' that I could acctually talk bout my feelings instead of keepin them in or jus writtin them or jus tellin people to fuck off or w/e. Cuz like, I really do need to talk bout shit more often. Buh I dont, cuz like, I cant and I feel like a fuckin loser bout it. I jus fuckin freeze up n' start cryin or sumthin. Cuz I'm jus fuckin stupid like that!
I need a smoke! Gah, buh no.... I dont have any. Fuckin assholes!
And grrr.... I wish my parents wernt such jackasses! Like fuck, most of the time when I want to go somewhere n' have fun n' be with people my parents r all like "no, not tonight" or "its to cold" or "I'm not givin u money n' how would u get their n' back" or sumthin like that or "what they cant come here" or "Jamie, get sum new friends that live over here" n' all this crap. And I wish I wasnt so fuckin afraid of takin the bus by myself. I feel like a fuckin loser, bcuz I dont know alot of shit that I prolly should know n' I'm jus completely stupid.
Whatever, I'm done with this bullshit!
Jams