Adios!!
So yea I am so mad and there are so many reasons.
First I have to go on like a 3 hour drive to some freaken ski place. I know I know I am gonna end up having fun and then feel stupid. But who the fuck cares. It is just the point that I don't wanna go and there is no reason for me to go.
How stupid can I be? Seriously!! To think that a guy, a senior guy, would actually like me or even smile at me. How much of an idiot can I be? I work myself up about this one guy that I want to be mine soo bab. But I am just stupid. He has a girl friend, I mean how did I not even think it. But even if he didn't have a girl friend, HE IS A SENIOR!! How could I even think for a second that he liked me at all? How could I be so stupid? I made myself believe that it was true and I pretty much just destroyed myself.
When I was at Dayna's party last night, yea it was fun. But, even though I had so many friends there, I felt so alone. I felt like no one was there, but me. I don't know why or how I felt that way but I did and it sux.
Whatever!! I am leaving soon so thats all I am gonna write. Call me on my cell if you feel like cheering me up because I am done calling people to talk to them when they never call to talk to me.
First I have to go on like a 3 hour drive to some freaken ski place. I know I know I am gonna end up having fun and then feel stupid. But who the fuck cares. It is just the point that I don't wanna go and there is no reason for me to go.
How stupid can I be? Seriously!! To think that a guy, a senior guy, would actually like me or even smile at me. How much of an idiot can I be? I work myself up about this one guy that I want to be mine soo bab. But I am just stupid. He has a girl friend, I mean how did I not even think it. But even if he didn't have a girl friend, HE IS A SENIOR!! How could I even think for a second that he liked me at all? How could I be so stupid? I made myself believe that it was true and I pretty much just destroyed myself.
When I was at Dayna's party last night, yea it was fun. But, even though I had so many friends there, I felt so alone. I felt like no one was there, but me. I don't know why or how I felt that way but I did and it sux.
Whatever!! I am leaving soon so thats all I am gonna write. Call me on my cell if you feel like cheering me up because I am done calling people to talk to them when they never call to talk to me.