its real now...
Jonathan is going to jail. 15 years min. last night may have been the last time i will see him in a long time. its so depressing. it hurts alot. he had oxycotton and thats gonna get him 15 years MIN.he could get up to 35... if he gets 15 he will be about 35 when he gets out. his daughter will be 16. once hes gone no one is going to care about him any longer. his friends are drug addicts. out of sight out of mind. i've always cared and for me it hurts alot. i cant comfort him, what can i say? i cant give him a reassuring hug, he'd get the wrong idea. i cant hurt him more by giving him false hopes that we cold get back toghether ever againg. we cant. i wont. i watched him go from a good normal kid down a terrible path. i tried to help him. i tried to save him. then i left. i joined tons of stuff at flanagan high to get away. he wouldnt listen to me, he was mad that i tried. i knew he'd regret it, but i didnt think id feel this way. he regrets it all. he says he should have listened to me. i havent seen him for about a year and i ran into him last night. as tough as he is on the outside, hes a sensitive good guy on the inside. jails gonna ruin him. hes gonna ocme out hard. its not fair. 15 for some pills. you can rape a woman and be in for a year. you can bring a fire arm into the airport and be on probation for 12 months. you can sexually abuse little girls and be out free to do it again. but fuck, you have some oxycotton? 15 years boy. the system just sucks. he knows and i know that he brought it on himself, but i wish he didnt have to go through it. i wish i didnt even know. hes threatening suicide. God, i pray he doesnt kill himself.