Panic attack last nite :-P
Ok so this sounds very dramatic but last nite i had a crazy panic attack and i can honestly tell you i dnt no where it came from. Ok let me start from the begining:
So yesterday i was all happy.. i got out of school, picked up my siter, picked up my paycheck, saw my bf, went to the doctor, found out i had strep throat (AAGAINNN), came home, got ready, went to college night.. it was a pretty normal day. As i was leavin college night m fone rings and it was corey and he was depressed anf frustrated over life and ppl tellin him he wont amount to anything and im listening and slowly im liike embodying his emotions and i had this built up like anger and i dk EXACTLY where it came from the only thing that made any sense to me is that its this connection that we had. Wen hes not happy i see no reason to be happy. So like all night im thinkin about him and i just started crying and hyperventalating and it felt like ppl were tellin me my whole life ill be nothing (mind you i havent talked to him since i left college night) and i am like pacing waiting forr him to all me cuz i couldt go to sleep until i new he was ok. I cojuldtn breathe and i was so upset and i didnt want to be. I didnt want to be angery or sad. I didnt want to soak my pillow in tears last nite. I personally had no reason to in my life. So like everytime i tried to sleep all i could think about is wut is corey doing i wonder if hes ok. Like my anxiety wouldnt settle until hes ok. Eventually i ended up taking benadyrl to go to sleep but i havent heard from him and i need to no if es ok cuz i can feel this build up comming back. Not half as bad as yesterdaqy but it IS still there. Oye i dk wut im going to do... i need him so bad. This is not normal but the only explenation is that he is literally my other half and wut he feels i feel and vice versa its like im the emotional one in the relationship so i am like the embodiment of his feelings.
Btw i am NOT pmsin thank you.
Xo B Ox
So yesterday i was all happy.. i got out of school, picked up my siter, picked up my paycheck, saw my bf, went to the doctor, found out i had strep throat (AAGAINNN), came home, got ready, went to college night.. it was a pretty normal day. As i was leavin college night m fone rings and it was corey and he was depressed anf frustrated over life and ppl tellin him he wont amount to anything and im listening and slowly im liike embodying his emotions and i had this built up like anger and i dk EXACTLY where it came from the only thing that made any sense to me is that its this connection that we had. Wen hes not happy i see no reason to be happy. So like all night im thinkin about him and i just started crying and hyperventalating and it felt like ppl were tellin me my whole life ill be nothing (mind you i havent talked to him since i left college night) and i am like pacing waiting forr him to all me cuz i couldt go to sleep until i new he was ok. I cojuldtn breathe and i was so upset and i didnt want to be. I didnt want to be angery or sad. I didnt want to soak my pillow in tears last nite. I personally had no reason to in my life. So like everytime i tried to sleep all i could think about is wut is corey doing i wonder if hes ok. Like my anxiety wouldnt settle until hes ok. Eventually i ended up taking benadyrl to go to sleep but i havent heard from him and i need to no if es ok cuz i can feel this build up comming back. Not half as bad as yesterdaqy but it IS still there. Oye i dk wut im going to do... i need him so bad. This is not normal but the only explenation is that he is literally my other half and wut he feels i feel and vice versa its like im the emotional one in the relationship so i am like the embodiment of his feelings.
Btw i am NOT pmsin thank you.
Xo B Ox