last diary entry.......poem to end the fairy............(or when i feel like using this one)

[sexy_ass_fairy]

this basically the only poem from my old "diary"................well the entire "diary" is one poem, i just add to it depending on how i feel:

Pg 3 of 27

as i point the barrel to my head
the chamber is still empty
but maybe by some miracle the bullet hit my friend
i stand about those who have fallen before me and pry for their safety

i continue to fight a loosing war
yet im rewarded for giving my life
who am i dying for?
i know im out of time.....

the only thing that i know is that love is meant to be created in a fight
the greatest love stories are created in the battle field
but, in the same sense
the greatest wars are fought over war

but somehow i feel alive.....
just the thought of a better life is more than i need to live on
i tighten my grip on my pistol
and point the barrel to those i love

they have lied to me for the last time
i can hear the static in the sound
im close...........im almost home,
even if my home is hell, ill know i belong there

well thats it for this LJ name for a while

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