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steve finally started talking to me again.
except now he's not going to talk to me anymore.
i gave up everything to be with him but now he wont be with me anymore.
right before he called...i told my mom that iif i couldnt be with him and do my other stuff, then fine. i dont need the other stuff...i just want him.
so she said fine. you dont get to do anything else anymore then.
and i said fine.
then he calls and i tell him what i did, and he says its sweet but to take it back. tell my mom i didnt mean it, but i refused to.
jklnbk. fuck. i fuck EVERYTHING up.
he told me not to tell him that i loved him; he said he knows that i love him just not to tell him because he didnt need it right now.
also, he says we cant see eachother for a while (at least until mid july after he gets back from south dakota) because he needs time. i understand that. i said id give him all the time he needed. he said he had to go, and i said i had one question, but then i said nevermind its stupid. and he says no im not going to get another girlfriend, but i am going to date...just go on a date. and then he yelled at me for asking him and i said i didnt ask...that i had said nevermind. then he said ok. and we said bye.
then he calls my mom and tells her who knows what. something about us not seeing eachother again for a long time.
so i guess i wont be going to his huge 4th of july party that i was so looking forward to.
no more snuggling on the couch while watching a movie.
no more going to the pool and laying out together.
no more little phone calls just to say "i love you" or "i miss you"
no more i love yous or i miss yous at all anymore
no more eskimo kisses
no more secret calls at 11pm where i have to whisper so my parents dont hear me talking
no more going to the spectrum
no more going to the park together
no more silly little inside jokes and sayings
no more goofing around together
no more happiness
no more smiles
no more sparkling eyes
just tears that go on for miles and miles
im sorry
i fucked up
(like always)
i wish i didnt
i love you
i'd do anything for you
but its all to late now i guess
ive fucked up
and thats the end
i love you♥
except now he's not going to talk to me anymore.
i gave up everything to be with him but now he wont be with me anymore.
right before he called...i told my mom that iif i couldnt be with him and do my other stuff, then fine. i dont need the other stuff...i just want him.
so she said fine. you dont get to do anything else anymore then.
and i said fine.
then he calls and i tell him what i did, and he says its sweet but to take it back. tell my mom i didnt mean it, but i refused to.
jklnbk. fuck. i fuck EVERYTHING up.
he told me not to tell him that i loved him; he said he knows that i love him just not to tell him because he didnt need it right now.
also, he says we cant see eachother for a while (at least until mid july after he gets back from south dakota) because he needs time. i understand that. i said id give him all the time he needed. he said he had to go, and i said i had one question, but then i said nevermind its stupid. and he says no im not going to get another girlfriend, but i am going to date...just go on a date. and then he yelled at me for asking him and i said i didnt ask...that i had said nevermind. then he said ok. and we said bye.
then he calls my mom and tells her who knows what. something about us not seeing eachother again for a long time.
so i guess i wont be going to his huge 4th of july party that i was so looking forward to.
no more snuggling on the couch while watching a movie.
no more going to the pool and laying out together.
no more little phone calls just to say "i love you" or "i miss you"
no more i love yous or i miss yous at all anymore
no more eskimo kisses
no more secret calls at 11pm where i have to whisper so my parents dont hear me talking
no more going to the spectrum
no more going to the park together
no more silly little inside jokes and sayings
no more goofing around together
no more happiness
no more smiles
no more sparkling eyes
just tears that go on for miles and miles
im sorry
i fucked up
(like always)
i wish i didnt
i love you
i'd do anything for you
but its all to late now i guess
ive fucked up
and thats the end
i love you♥