doom
ive decided that im doomed. cursed. i dont understand why. but o well. i wish i couldnt care. can anyone help with that? i wish that what happens to ppl doesnt matter to me and that i can just be cold and heartless towards ppl whove hurt me. but no...i care and they hurt me over and over and over again. i feel so empty rite now im just in so much pain. i cry myself to sleep everynite over mike. i dont understand why. i mean i obviously dont matter to him. he obviously doesnt care and doesnt want anything to do with me. hes happy with heather. woo. o and im happy about them too since i care so much about ppl even tho every time i hear a we or us about them it kills me more. i hate my life rite now. in other news i start training tues and weds for dunkin donuts. that is where i will be slaving away so that i can buy a car so that i can get out of springville next summer and go off to college. hurrah. fuck the world.