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i feel fine. really. but theres a chunk of me missing. my parents dont like the ppl i hang with and i cant see myself with another guy. idk if i really want an actual relationship. i mean ive cried myself to sleep everynite since mike broke up with me. i realize that its over but i miss him so much. it doesnt help any that him and my closest friend are dating and have been. but thats kewl. cuz theyre both good ppl and they both deserve someone great. i just wonder when i get to have happiness. i wonder when i can stop being the one who just sits back and listens to other ppl and takes crap. i care too much about ppl. life taunted me with happiness and then took it away. i dont get it. what the hell have i done so wrong. **sigh** o well. i got a job. woo. dunkin donuts. and my road test is coming up and i get braces in august. so idk the real worlds sinking in. but i want happiness. i want friends. well enough of my depressing ranting.