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Dan invited me over tonight and we made out. I'm such a fucking moron. As we started to get naked and dan was sucking on my nipples and biting down, I inadvertantly said "Brian, stop!"
Dan was upset and pissed. But that didnt stop him. He basically said, oh well, and continued. I felt so guilty I let him finger me some and then asked him to stop and he wouldnt. He pushed me down and started to go down on me, before I started yelling and punched him in the side of his ear. He got angry and shoved me off his bed and called me a fucking slut. I left quickly and forgot my umbrella. Of course I got my new purse wet, which pisses me off but I feel cheap and stupid.
And I called HIM.
He answered the phone and was apologetic. "I'm sorry this stuff happens to you, Les. You need to be more careful."
Of course i didnt tell him the reason WHY dan got pissy, but i just said that dan tried to attack me.
He came over, wet from running in the rain...all sweetness and concern. He's the most amazing person in the world. He bought me a a tiny stuffed bear from a convenience store, but its the thought that counts. He's s amazing....
I changed my mind. I want him for myself....but more than anything else I just want him to be happy. I dont care who he is with...he just deserves to be happy.... hes so giving.....
After everything hes going through, he still found the time to drop by and make sure im alright. even though im a cheat and a bitch and he has every reason to hate me.
He deserves the best. He deserves to be happy.
=(
Dan was upset and pissed. But that didnt stop him. He basically said, oh well, and continued. I felt so guilty I let him finger me some and then asked him to stop and he wouldnt. He pushed me down and started to go down on me, before I started yelling and punched him in the side of his ear. He got angry and shoved me off his bed and called me a fucking slut. I left quickly and forgot my umbrella. Of course I got my new purse wet, which pisses me off but I feel cheap and stupid.
And I called HIM.
He answered the phone and was apologetic. "I'm sorry this stuff happens to you, Les. You need to be more careful."
Of course i didnt tell him the reason WHY dan got pissy, but i just said that dan tried to attack me.
He came over, wet from running in the rain...all sweetness and concern. He's the most amazing person in the world. He bought me a a tiny stuffed bear from a convenience store, but its the thought that counts. He's s amazing....
I changed my mind. I want him for myself....but more than anything else I just want him to be happy. I dont care who he is with...he just deserves to be happy.... hes so giving.....
After everything hes going through, he still found the time to drop by and make sure im alright. even though im a cheat and a bitch and he has every reason to hate me.
He deserves the best. He deserves to be happy.
=(