really down

[sexxxy_brunette]

this week has had alot of ups and downs. but it seems like everything has always gotten me down. no matter what it be. the one that i love the most doesn't even want to talk to me, as a matter of fact, he is happy that im not going to florida with the band. you have no idea how upset i am about that. everytime i just go up to him to have a friendly conversation with him, all he does is yell in my face about something. and he says that i am annoy when i go up to people and is a little jumpy. so literally what he is saying is that he doesn't like to be around me when im happy. who is there right minds would want to be told that?! well not me, that just made me feel even worse. owell, i'll get to see some of my best friends in New York. at least i know they will be glad to see me. they'll help me out with my problems. and one of my best friends has told me to just wait for this guy, then he will notice you when it is right. but right now, i just can't take it. im ready to bust in tears. but i will do my best to wait for this guy who i really love, yet he doesn't seem to care, or even notice for that matter. hopefully he will realize it, and care a little more.

and by the way, for everyone that is wondering, i am NOT anorexic!!

hope to here from all my friends when were all on the east coast! i'll miss you guys terribly!!

*~Suzie~*