Sad Heart Rot Among The Living
Sigh. So much has happened again and I really need to write more in this thing. I just haven't had time. My Apt with Stacy got canceled witch I was happy about because she always makes me cry. She just brings up all these questions about my friends diing and what I would do. Ugh Oh Well I have it on monday right before dance. Kate has been realy upset lately and I feel help less to make things better because I am partly the problem. Sigh I have not been able to spen time with her alone in like for ever and I have had no time to myself in some time now. School is going well I am not making many friends tho... It's ok tho. Matt Baker didn't even think I went to Chs anymore on acount of the fact he never sees me. I was like oh thanks yeah Matt I see you every day. Oh well I sat and talked to him for a little bit and it was good. I have not talked to him in forever. My parents are still not sharing a room. They don't fight anymore well not as much. My dad also only drinks Fake beer. Things are all kinda coming together except for school. I am happy there but not really I mean I don't know. I went to a surprize party for Ryan Anderson the other day and his mom was showing us pic's from the country fair. I had to see ceder(Not in person thank god)he was in the pics. Yuckie he is so gross I feel so vialated the whole time at the country fair he was touching me and wouldn't take a hint. Any way I don't want to think about it. My house is empty right now. I feel like crying I am just realy lonly . I went to a peac rally with my dad and dan and Jen. Eli was there and so we walked with him. then afterwards we got huge honken. The rally was against war in Iraq it was really great 3-4000 people must have been there because when we were don't marching some people were still at the start of route. Jen Told me about how Brian is living on the street now and has droped out of school. His mother aparently kicked him out. I worrie for him I guess he spent his first nigh in a smart park.hopefuly he will get sick of being homeless and in the rain and go live with Eithan or something. I miss all of you in oak lawn. I might be out to visit in the winter months because my brother wants me to come out and stay with just him. It would be nice to see some real snow I haven't seen oak lawn covered in snow before I moved. I remember how we used to get snow days and all that fun stuff. sigh. I miss oak lawn so much.... I love all of you......