should I be

Jul 24, 2005 14:30

No that I know much people who have been abandoned by their father, but the ones I do know are all messed up from it. Does that make me odd cause I don't obsess over it like they do. My biological father took off when I was three-ish, but I'm not on some quest to find him. From what I hear, he left his other daughter too which means I have another half sister somewhere but should I go find her and try and complete my family. I only have two memories of him but I don't feel any kind of way about them. I think that weirds people out a bit cause it's always the same 'gaspshocknoway how could you not be upset or sad'. Normally I never give much thought to the issue but since I'm visiting family, my grandparents are always bothering me to go visit my other grandparents but I just don't want to. I know where they live so maybe that seems bad but I'm just not interested. The only thing I've wondered about lately is how many traits did I inherent from that side of the family only because of all the family drama with my dad's side of the family. I've known my dad since I was two and he's a pretty decent dad but I've never felt particularly close to him or the need to strengthen our relationship somehow, things are fine the way they are now. So I don't really see why he'd want to stop working less now to be a better father, I'm grown now, maybe it's different for my sibs cause they used to get so upset when he left for work cause he'd be gone for weeks at a time but they're used to it now. The only male I ever felt really close to was my granddad. I believe that fathers are important but just because you didn't have one around doesn't mean you won't be able to function around men in the future or you're going to go looking for a father. I am definitely not looking for that, I'm kind of tired of all the assumptions people make about father-less children cause it isn't always true.
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