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So yea alot shit going on lately. I wish i could say all good things but it never is i got into this huge argument with my parents the other day and my dad ended up giving me this huge speal about how i need to have faith and i need to pray and God will guide me and all this crap but u know my parents are only trying to help but im not them. Its not like i dont know what to believe in but honestly if God is really listening why has he never answered my prayers, why is it that when i pray and i ask for happiness, not complete udder happines but just something worth wild, something that is better then the way ive felt over the last year or when im crying and i feel like giving up he doesnt come he doesnt answer, i mean what am i suppose to expect to hold onto this plan of his, if im suppose to question should he not be there to reveal that he is almigty and that he will bring what i need, and what i need is happiness, not money, not fame, not possesions just a real smile, real genuine happiness....im just so tired of not caring or caring to much or not caring enough its just to much and non of this is worth it to me.