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Ok so yea my computer is playing random music and what comes up the song "The Promise" by Tracy Chapman. It caught me off guard, i listened to the song, i dont know why cuz i knew after listening to it i would prolly feel like shit and i kinda do. It made me think of Amber, and i dont need to think of Amber besides talking to her online just a few minutes ago i dont need to be reminded of her. It made me think about how it was a year ago now, that i first started liking her, that we would talk every night, it made me think about how i miss that, how i wish i had that, how last years Christmas was the best in my life, and how this year, well with the way ive been feeling this year it might actually be the worst. But i guess i have to remember everything happens for a reason, i know Amber will be having a great holiday with her boyfriend, so why cant I cant have a good , Everything happens for a reason? I may not know those reasons yet, but maybe theyll be answered at some point down the road. I dont have someone to talk to everynight, i dont have someone to love but I do have a wonderful family, and I do have brothers who care about me. Someday, somewhere down the road ill have another one of those Christmas's that i love and will never forget about cuz somebodies out there for me, somebody that appreciates me for me, and untill then im gonna be thankful for my family, and for the things i do have, and for my brothers...I just wanna say thanks to the brothers of Sigma Phi Epsilon for being there for me, when they can see im down, you have no idea what it means to me...