self indulgence sadned tale
Well lets see, i have a habit of not updating for a few months. I got laid off from the place i was working, got a new computer, and cell phone and even a digital camera too. I met a few new people since then, pretty cool and definitely my kind of crowd.I had a moment of clarity one day and it broke me down to skin and bones. So critical it was, to where i didnt even want to be myself or around anyone. Now im 23, and single but happy. finally realized that my happiness is worth so much, even if it hurts a lil to get it. its almost thankgiving .. sheesh. how fast time flies by when your doing stuff.. or tryin to figure your life out. lol i went to a few concerts this year. yay thankfully i can say i actually experience those. avenged sevenfold was bad ass, and i enjoyed every mintue of it. and then killswitch engage.. oh man.. one word... INSANE.
My brother finally got his dream, and got to experience the life of being a father and supporter. my oldest brother found that he is happy where he is, and my youngest brother.. thinkin about getting a engagement ring with this girl he met at job corp and hes got his degree in computer techn. my sister the spitting image of myself when i was younger but a good kid none the less, and of course my ex tryin to get with me.. whos in jail but soon to get out.. ugh.
i think this year was good , but also another trail of self discovery. I have learned so much and had such lil time to say what i have to say. but im glad ive met who ive met and cherish those moments. There are a few ppl that im considering gettin to know .. and seein what happens. but im happy and content.. just lil ol me.. tryin to avoid drama as it is here in this small lil place. Cause in the end everything we do is everything we've done.
heres a song to describe the past few months.
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