Doubt Escapes.
The beauty of being able to make decisions in your life is the fact that if you make mistakes, and want to go back and try and fix them, you can. It doesn't matter how many times you make decisions that other people think are wrong for you, if you want to try and fix them, you can. Other people aren't you. That's probably one of the only great aspects of being human. Ha.
I've had a lot of things hinder me in the last few months. A lot. To the point where it has almost turned me into a hermit. It doesn't really bother me that I don't want to be around a lot of different people that I normally am around, its the reason I don't want to be around them that bother me. I can honestly say I have about four people in my life I can honestly trust with my heart. Maybe five. Its okay though. I'll get over this little phase of feeling. I want to. But I am going to be making changes in the ways that I live.
I'm not going to be walked on anymore by people that are close to me. I'm not going to accept my "friends" saying shit that is obviously going to get back to me. I'm not into the whole he said she said drama bullshit. I don't care. I'll just cut people off. It's that easy. I've already started doing that. Some of the people that I'm around decide its their business to get involved with my relationships, and in return help the demise of it. That happens again, faces are getting punched. No questions asked. It makes me cherish the people in my life that are true friends and know exactly who and what I'm talking about. Thanks.
I can't allow people, past romances to pop up in my life with any sort of hope or demand that I just let my heart fall back down on the bed of spikes. Sorry. Not anymore. We all choose what we want in our lives...I don't need people pretending they want me...and when you say you do, and then don't, and do, it's pretending. I especially don't need it when I could be moving on. To new people or other "past mistakes". Who knows what's in store for me. It isn't sitting around and getting my heart broken.
I'm going to try and move in March. I'll be happier with life if I'm not constantly in Scottsburg. I don't necessarily like it here...and I think I'd be happier in a city. Louisville works for me. I won't be able to go to school this semester, which is depressing, but, partly my fault...either way. I'll still be able to keep things going with my band, keep the kind of friendships that I want, and live away in the city, with whoever I want, and have no small-town problems. :)
Everything is going to be okay.
For everyone, including me.
Peace and Love
I've had a lot of things hinder me in the last few months. A lot. To the point where it has almost turned me into a hermit. It doesn't really bother me that I don't want to be around a lot of different people that I normally am around, its the reason I don't want to be around them that bother me. I can honestly say I have about four people in my life I can honestly trust with my heart. Maybe five. Its okay though. I'll get over this little phase of feeling. I want to. But I am going to be making changes in the ways that I live.
I'm not going to be walked on anymore by people that are close to me. I'm not going to accept my "friends" saying shit that is obviously going to get back to me. I'm not into the whole he said she said drama bullshit. I don't care. I'll just cut people off. It's that easy. I've already started doing that. Some of the people that I'm around decide its their business to get involved with my relationships, and in return help the demise of it. That happens again, faces are getting punched. No questions asked. It makes me cherish the people in my life that are true friends and know exactly who and what I'm talking about. Thanks.
I can't allow people, past romances to pop up in my life with any sort of hope or demand that I just let my heart fall back down on the bed of spikes. Sorry. Not anymore. We all choose what we want in our lives...I don't need people pretending they want me...and when you say you do, and then don't, and do, it's pretending. I especially don't need it when I could be moving on. To new people or other "past mistakes". Who knows what's in store for me. It isn't sitting around and getting my heart broken.
I'm going to try and move in March. I'll be happier with life if I'm not constantly in Scottsburg. I don't necessarily like it here...and I think I'd be happier in a city. Louisville works for me. I won't be able to go to school this semester, which is depressing, but, partly my fault...either way. I'll still be able to keep things going with my band, keep the kind of friendships that I want, and live away in the city, with whoever I want, and have no small-town problems. :)
Everything is going to be okay.
For everyone, including me.
Peace and Love