Days Late, Dollars Short.
There isn't many things I enjoy in my present life than walking around school in the Fall. The clouds shading the sun just enough to allow the temperature to be completely perfect and go hand-in-hand with the slightly chilling breeze that puts just enough goosebumps down your spine and arms. Refreshing. That's how I feel when I go outside here. I know I'm in a city that doesn't betray itself. I know I'm in a school with no drama. I know I'm in a place where I can't be hurt. Don't fuck it up....right?
I'm content in so many ways in my life, yet so not. I still think I can be better in the education department....I'm off to an okay start, but not good. I've missed a few classes....so that's got to stop. I've lost 13 pounds on Weight Watchers...I'm proud of myself for that. I've been working my ass off and working toward a promotion. My room's always a mess. My parents are always yelling about it. I'm so confused about my own heart right now that its hard for me to help my friends when they need it. They seem to be doing okay on their own for now though. I can be here 24/7 to listen....but I can't always help. Only certain individuals....thats what was in the job description....brandy knows what I mean by that. I love that kid. I don't think there's anyone better I'd want my best friend to date.
My heart is fucked right now. It's so confused about what it wants. Whether it wants security, adventure, caution....so many emotions swirling around. Get me offa this crazy thing called love.
I'm debating giving you another chance....but should I? Will it happen again? Remember the rules....haha. ;)
Blahhhhh.
So many thoughts.
I need you.
I need YOU too....but I cannot revert to you. I must erase you.
Peace and Love
I'm content in so many ways in my life, yet so not. I still think I can be better in the education department....I'm off to an okay start, but not good. I've missed a few classes....so that's got to stop. I've lost 13 pounds on Weight Watchers...I'm proud of myself for that. I've been working my ass off and working toward a promotion. My room's always a mess. My parents are always yelling about it. I'm so confused about my own heart right now that its hard for me to help my friends when they need it. They seem to be doing okay on their own for now though. I can be here 24/7 to listen....but I can't always help. Only certain individuals....thats what was in the job description....brandy knows what I mean by that. I love that kid. I don't think there's anyone better I'd want my best friend to date.
My heart is fucked right now. It's so confused about what it wants. Whether it wants security, adventure, caution....so many emotions swirling around. Get me offa this crazy thing called love.
I'm debating giving you another chance....but should I? Will it happen again? Remember the rules....haha. ;)
Blahhhhh.
So many thoughts.
I need you.
I need YOU too....but I cannot revert to you. I must erase you.
Peace and Love