for reasons unknown

[sexual_nymph]

i'm losing my mind

maybe if i say it enough it feel finally be true

lose my mind to finally find my being

sometimes i think i can still feel her inside me
like i trapped her essence because i can't ever let her go
but i wouldn't have known what to do with her anyway
cause i'm not ready yet, can barely take care of me

but sometimes i almost think i could have been a good momma..
i really wanted to try

a year later and i'm still mourning someone i never met
still missing a life i never led
still crying over a child that never existed

and it sucks
and i just want to stop being sad
every morning
to every night

lord grant me psychedelics..

(***static****)