Tributes

[sexondabeach]

Ok, so today was my first day of reinvention!!! I'm lovin'it (bada ba da da) hehe. Yes, so I am very happy with the fact that I got a personal trainer. His name is Ryan and even tho he kicked my ass, I forgive him bcz he is gunna help me turn into wut I've always wanted. An extremly healthy, toned, peppy/hyper person. Totally not me at all right now. I have low self-esteem and the fact that I have to squeeze myself into a bathing suit on saturday. Hopefully he wont be repulsed. I really REALLY like him. I want to impress him. Not repulse him. He is such a sweetheart and if he doesnt like me like that, then I'll be disappointed at first but I'll eventually get used to it and all I want out of it is a really close friendship, like me n kev's. So, I've decided for my 18th b-day instead of throwing a huge party, I wanna just get away, go to a weekend spa w/my mom and spend quality, relaxation time with her. I miss her n me padre. I hate not being able to see them. It tears me up inside. I am so close with my parents its crazy. They are my safty net and without them I would truely not have been the same person I am today. They've taught me to be strong in my beliefs, to respect authority, be independent, and stick up for what I know is right. No matter what I do, they have always stuck by me 110% and I couldnt be more greatful for such a loving mother and father. I am truely blessed. I miss my brother, he was a beautiful person. Elisa, i know what you are going thru. He was my light and best friend. I know ur Mom looks down on you and smiles about how grown up you've become. I'm so lucky to have a friend like you. You've stuck by me through my hardest time in high school and for that I will always be greatful. I wish you all the best in life. Kevin- where do I start? You've inspired me to become a better person. Your fashion ideas and smarts have definitely broadened my life. Without your friendship, love, compassion, I would be lost. Thank you for giving me that extra push to reinvent myself these past 3 years, love you buddy! Meaghan- you are amazing! One of a kind. Your ideas and inspiring personality are 1 in a million. Without you I would never have listened to the Finians, American pie songs, thinking about certain things in this world, or just being me. We've been through A LOT! And I'm thankful you were by my side. Ever since we met at the Hart Park swimming pool. Jenny- Sexy woman! I cant believe you are 18!!!! Eek. I've spent many years being crazy with you. We both opend up a ton when we were together, from sharing our first concert, to going with each other on our first dayes w/our first boyfriends. We've had a lot of "interesting" memories, and I wouldn't change them for the world! To anyone I forgot, I'm sorry. You all mean the world to me and I love you all!!! Smooches.
*** We're the SMOOTHIES...cuz we're smooth like that!