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i'm not as mean or as cool as u may think. i'm a silly little grl who will mess up ur mind all because of her feelings and all because she still doesn't quite get y she wa sput here, truth is i don't blame u or any one else i blame myself and the guilt i feel is wat fucks me up... i don't know really what i'm talking baout i'm just letting words flow out maybe some day i'll read this over again and get what the fuck these words mean but now i just feel like putting it out there y i don't fucking know. i hate the fact i was born and the fact i will die soon, i hate everything there is about u and yet i can't stay away from u, i hate myself for ever letting u in and i'm glad i did, i hate all the words i said but i'm happy i said it and grateful cuz u listened... the last couple of days sucked but like everything else i blame me, i didn't try , oh wait a second yes i did (silence) baby cries... ur still my best friend that's forever i still love u times 10 i'll never stop caring ever! but in the end i wish none of it had happend and at the same time i thank God so much cuz it did... u mean everyhting to me maybe that's y the day wa sso crappy i'm starting to feel the pain we all get once we start to care... that's how i know u don't .
call me later please... that is if u want...
call me later please... that is if u want...