i miss her
i miss my mom so much. i keep reliving the last time she actually recognized me before she died. it was about a week or so before she died, she'd pretty much lost the ability to talk by this time, unless she was yelling at you to not give her her medicine, but even that had just become a loud protesting sound. i was visiting, reaching across her to adjust something on the bed, telling her how much i loved her, when her eyes kinda focused on me, lost that haze for that moment, and she put her hands on my head, pulled me down to her, and gave me several kisses on my cheek all while trying to say something to me, but unfortunately the words never quite made it out. it sounded more like the soft comforting sounds a mother makes to her baby, even though i know she was trying to talk. i miss her so much.