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everything is finally falling into place. sortof. i certainly do not intend on being a nanny my entire life. but i'm slowly beginning to fill my plate--which is good, because i need to stay busy in order to keep focused. i work as a nanny, have a weekend job at natasha's attic (lame, i know), and am starting on-line classes spring semester.
my dad's been in rehab for the past month. for alcohol. he's coming home today at 1AM. it'll be weird... i'm not sure whether or not he intends to continue drinking. afterall, he just forked out about 20 grand for this program. who knows. but it seems like he and i talk less than we ever did, and he wants less to do with me than he ever did. he wants me to start paying rent. $200 a month, which is what i make in a week, not including paying off my two credit cards, restitution fines, gas, and general living costs. even food. he's insane. he told me to treat him like we're roommates and leave him alone. what a guy!
since mom died, it seems really important to me to build a meaningful relationship with what family i have left. it's working with EVERY member but pops. kindof discouraging, but hopefully he'll come around.
i'm single and loving it. i have no room in my life for a relationship. with relationships come feelings, with feelings come despair, and despair is most certainly accompanied by hopelessness and the need to fill holes. so no relationships for now.
i'm going to the city this weekend. staying in a hotel and everything. with my boss, her wife, kids, and roomie cheryl. we all get along fabulously, i love them.
that is all.
i love life.
my dad's been in rehab for the past month. for alcohol. he's coming home today at 1AM. it'll be weird... i'm not sure whether or not he intends to continue drinking. afterall, he just forked out about 20 grand for this program. who knows. but it seems like he and i talk less than we ever did, and he wants less to do with me than he ever did. he wants me to start paying rent. $200 a month, which is what i make in a week, not including paying off my two credit cards, restitution fines, gas, and general living costs. even food. he's insane. he told me to treat him like we're roommates and leave him alone. what a guy!
since mom died, it seems really important to me to build a meaningful relationship with what family i have left. it's working with EVERY member but pops. kindof discouraging, but hopefully he'll come around.
i'm single and loving it. i have no room in my life for a relationship. with relationships come feelings, with feelings come despair, and despair is most certainly accompanied by hopelessness and the need to fill holes. so no relationships for now.
i'm going to the city this weekend. staying in a hotel and everything. with my boss, her wife, kids, and roomie cheryl. we all get along fabulously, i love them.
that is all.
i love life.