Who cares anymore?
Geeeeeez, the four day weekend was not what I had in mind. That sucks that Dana's shin-dig did not go into affect, but there will be other times...I promise, kids!
I have so much to say, but somehow I cannot get it out. Dammit.
I talked to my dad today and boy, can you say awkward? It's just not the same anymore, and I hate it so much. I used to be able to tell him everything, but now it's even hard to say 'hello' without bursting into tears. I go to sleep everynight knowing that I failed him. I am such an asshole, all I care about is that I don't get hurt, and really I am hurting him, my own fucking father. I try to tell myself it'll all be okay...but it won't...
I really hate myself, I ignored the situation for so long and now I want to confront it, but, really...I don't know what my Step-mother yelled at me for or why I decided to stay with my mother.
I just don't know and really now...what the fuck?
When will it all be okay, when can I wake up feeling like the Jayme I used to be, carefree and ready to dance and drink coffee?
I am an asshole to all my friends, I just don't try hard enough...
I am going to end this.
-Jayme
I have so much to say, but somehow I cannot get it out. Dammit.
I talked to my dad today and boy, can you say awkward? It's just not the same anymore, and I hate it so much. I used to be able to tell him everything, but now it's even hard to say 'hello' without bursting into tears. I go to sleep everynight knowing that I failed him. I am such an asshole, all I care about is that I don't get hurt, and really I am hurting him, my own fucking father. I try to tell myself it'll all be okay...but it won't...
I really hate myself, I ignored the situation for so long and now I want to confront it, but, really...I don't know what my Step-mother yelled at me for or why I decided to stay with my mother.
I just don't know and really now...what the fuck?
When will it all be okay, when can I wake up feeling like the Jayme I used to be, carefree and ready to dance and drink coffee?
I am an asshole to all my friends, I just don't try hard enough...
I am going to end this.
-Jayme