9/26/06
sleep is alluding me. I don't deserve sleep. I've put myself in a precarious situation. I will not be graduating in may. I might be able to walk in may and receive my diploma in august, however that is depending on what classes I'm missing and if I can take them in the summer. It also depends on if all the classes I want to take next semester, don't conflict with each other, because then I'd be basically screwed. Everyone says it's not a big deal, it's not like high school. It's still the feeling of being left back while everyone moves ahead. I should have realized this. Why didn't I take 5 classes last semster? Why didn't I take 5 classes this semester? I could have taken digital photo and I only would be behind 3 credits. I hate that I did this to myself. I know that college is flexible, nothing is set in stone, but I'm costing my parents so much money. More money than I can fathom right now. I worry too much, I know I worry too much. Maybe this is fate's way of telling me I'm not ready for the world yet. I don't know what this is. All I know is I can't sleep. I couldn't sleep last night. This keeps gnawing away at me.
My roommate is watching porn again. I need to sleep. I need to stop worrying about this. I wish I could turn my brain off.
My roommate is watching porn again. I need to sleep. I need to stop worrying about this. I wish I could turn my brain off.