loong time

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ok so i havent updated this thing in 3 weeks...wow thats a long time, but i think im getting kinda sick of this thing, im jsut gonna keep it for my livejournal community thing that i have with ale...but anyways right now im in california mainly visiting my cousins pardis and parniya, but yesterday i came to my other cousins house (autria and arshia) to visit them and i slept over and im still at there house...they are the cutest cousins EVER!!!! i mean arshia looks like my uncle and my mom at the same time..which is weird...and autria just loves me...its a good feeling to be loved and wanted, but so me and pardis have been having a lot of fun recently with swimming mall, movies, today we're going mini-golfing :) but ya i cant wait til monday cuz i get to see my best friend...alemale (or ademade...or just plain ale) but me ale and pardis are going to see a movie (not sure which one yet) then shop a little in the mall...and then im gonna go to ale's house and sleep over im so excited, i miss her so much, im really excited to see her house tho, but she said it doesnt have air conditioning...ahh how will i survive jk...but ya i dunno this trip has been fun..but now im starting to turn back into my old self, and i really dont want to...it just kinda sux, i mean my old self of thinking about life and all that crap...i really wish i could stop but i have no control over it anymore...i kinda just feel like i have no control over my life in general anymore...oh well hopefully this whole "thinking" thing will end soon...we'll see
love always
moi