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i just read seans journal entries. i really need to stop doing that bc every time i do i miss him so much more and it hurts because i want to tell him that i like him alot and i miss him so much and im angry at myself for not telling him everything i was feeling when he was here. i just took for granted that he was 5 minutes away from me and i could see him whenever i wanted to. now i dont see him and its like he has a life of his own (duh) in maryland with all these other people and hes totally forgotten about me. and i know i sound super selfish right now but its like ive lost one of the best people in my life. he will never know how much he really means to me bc im too chicken to tell him. wtf is wrong with me?
anyway... today i picked up Josh and we went to Melting Pot and Outback looking for a job. *note to everyone... they dont open till about 4 or 5 oclock* so it was a wasted trip. but i got to spend an hour with josh and thats really cool. He knows jesse and he doenst like him too much i dont think. but w/e. i missed josh. i really did.